crystalem

I feel as if I don’t really have my place on this anymore, but I always recognise this site as having so many good people doing such wonderful things, and I wish I was on this to acnknowledge that more.

It’s lovely to think that one cheer can make a person smile, and a smile gives a person something to smile about—even if it’s the only thing. Perhaps it’s optimistic, but it helps me personally to think that way at times.

And they are called “cheers” for a reason… perhaps because it’s the idea? : )

I suppose I’m giving this up because it never did come out the way I meant it. : ) Perhaps it is that I do one day want to be able to teach philosophy, or be able to discuss it somewhere over coffee, which sounds a bit silly.

It is all because of those philosophy classes that started early in school. One particular teacher had told me that he’d be very disappointed if I did not pursue it at some point, but the same goes for the English teacher who wrote a letter trying to get me to write something, but not let ‘it’ (whatever that is) go to waste. I believe I’ve done that to the best of my ability as writing is clearly not my strong suit, but when I do get the chance to, I will drone on and on about bits that don’t much matter. So that ‘it’ was simply a tendency for detail, which simply goes to show that I prefer things that way! But as for philosophy, I’m much more interested and haven’t been able to delve into that much other than in books and movies.

So I suppose I kept thinking about that silly philosophy teacher at university… and how he had to put up with me through 3 courses. Lecture after lecture, discussion after discussion, and, of course, paper after paper! I’ve no creative mind for paper-writing. If asked to write my thoughts on something which I haven’t necessarily got thoughts on, I just think of the next closest thing that I can elaborate with for hours about that might just have a relating point. I did a paper on Antigone, that I can recall. The common thought was that she was a hero for sticking up for what she believed in, which is what the paper was to be about… Instead, I went off on a fairly long bit on why Antigone was both selfish and foolish, and not precisely a model for the way emotions influence the human mind. Perhaps the truth was that I coudln’t see Antigone as a hero, no matter how much I tried to get that reasoning. Going against those ideas was purely out of interest, but I was certainly risking a bit for not going by the professor’s guidelines. I also thought, “dare I question!” which, in my opinion, no teacher of philosophy of all topics should object to!

To be quite honest, I still don’t know a thing about philosophy. I have learned some things, and topics give me such great ideas in thought, but nothing more. In fact, I doubt I could ever lecture well, to even the smallest of groups. This is partially why a goal from a year ago does not make much sense to me. I have and always will be very shy!

I’m starving for cherries, and I’ve got so much time on my hands at the moment. I’m sure it could be pulled off, if only I had the cherries… I’m very determined though, so I’m sure there is a way to do it. There have been times which I’ve tried, but I don’t believe the stem was very long as it seemed a bit impossible!