I'm doing 28 things
Things to remember
17 hours ago
I am broke, not poor.
I am hopeful, not fearful.
I am powerful, not weak.
I am blessed, not cursed.
Charlie's Life List
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1. quit drinking
10 entries . 18 cheers927 people -
2. Reboot
4 entries . 2 cheers2 people -
3. live my life
6 entries . 8 cheers197 people -
4. take care of myself
13 entries . 33 cheers280 people -
5. Keep my chin up
1 entry . 1 cheer4 people -
6. Work the steps
1 entry . 1 cheer4 people -
7. forgive myself
2 entries . 8 cheers672 people -
8. Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.
34 entries . 2 cheers735 people -
9. write
2 entries . 10 cheers1,362 people -
10. Be a better attorney
4 entries . 17 cheers3 people -
11. spend more time with friends
5 entries . 16 cheers588 people -
12. Encourage all the smokers who have the Amazing Goal of quitting
55 team members . 2 entries . 24 cheers52 people -
13. see a game at each Major League Baseball stadium
2 entries . 10 cheers76 people -
14. memorize The Love Song Of J. Alfred Prufrock
3 entries . 15 cheers32 people -
15. live with no boundaries between the sacred and the secular
1 entry . 13 cheers8 people -
16. write in my paper journal more
1 entry . 6 cheers9 people -
17. say 43 positive things about myself, one a day for 43 days
19 entries . 4 cheers11 people -
18. feel the fear and do it anyway
2 entries . 15 cheers446 people -
19. take 43 self portrait photographs where you cannot see my face
5 cheers86 people -
20. learn to play the mandolin
1 entry . 9 cheers252 people -
21. live the four agreements
1 entry . 9 cheers35 people -
22. make a daily "to do" list that i actually follow
1 entry . 6 cheers105 people -
23. be dairy free
3 entries . 4 cheers2 people -
24. visit my friend in Massachusetts
4 cheers1 person -
25. eat more vegetables
3 entries . 8 cheers861 people -
26. Spend less; save more; embrace conspicuous underconsumption
1 entry . 2 cheers2 people -
27. do first things first
4 cheers94 people -
28. Celebrate Flirt's birthday with chocolate, flirtinis and anything purple on Nov 11th
1 cheer53 people
How I did it
It made me
drained and broken 
How I did it: I didn't actually do it. I failed. I am basically broke, and the clients have stopped coming. I have no head for business, no head for marketing, no head for any of that.So I am looking for work, and limiting what ever new cases I take to simple matters that can be resolved quickly; I don't want to get a job and be forced to return tons of fees.But with all the other things going on in my life, I think it's time for a reboot. Read how I did it…
Recent entries
Time to think outside the box
1 day ago
Whatever that means…
What I am doing is not working. I do not know how to run a business, I don’t know how to manage money, I barely know how to live life as a grownup. So I am going broke.
I take that back. I am broke.
My phone has been shut off, I am probably going to get kicked out of my apartment, and my car is likely to be repoed.
The really scary thing about having my phone shut off is that I have resumes out there right now. I had (ironically enough) a phone interview the other night for a non-legal job at night so that I could do things like pay the phone bill and the rent.
So I have to get creative, which is hard enough to do under optimal circumstances. I can eliminate things like criminal enterprises, so manwhore is off the list.
But I am now in need of basic necessities in modern life — food I have for a few weeks, thanks to things that don’t go bad like pasta and canned soup. But shelter, and the added modern necessities for survival — communication and transportation — are spotty. Even clothing is in question, as I do not have a winter coat at the moment. That one I’m not as worried about, global warming and all.
But I am worried.
So I have to make contingency plans, and that will a series of honest assessments about my life, assessments I’m not ready to make yet.
Thursday November 5
2 days ago
I haven’t done this in a while. I’ve been busy dodging all the stuff flying off the fan. Alternating between between fear, panic, depression, and hope.
This last week, I am happy to report, hope has been on the up. Let’s hope the trend continues.
Today I grateful for:
- Almost two months of real sobriety behind me, and one day at a time to go.
- I have some per diem and hourly work to do for my former boss, and I have resumes out there for more regular work.
- I’m making peace with my family.
- The resurgence of hope in my life. All will be well, this too shall pass.
- The wonderful, amazing, sexy new person in my life, who is also sane and sober. Excited and happy.
