lately i just havent been feeling like im living, you know? like i havent gone out and done somthing awesome, something that makes my heart race, somthing thats like wow, wtf was i thinking? that was so stupid but so cool!! yea so i gotta get ontop of this, i gotta get my heart racing
ctndu's Life List
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1. get super good grades in skool
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2. ask myself what i would do if didnt have the possibility of failiure each day
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3. To live instead of exist
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4. stop wishing it would happen and make it happen
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5. write a song
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6. be more confident
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7. be happy
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8. procrastinate less
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9. admit what I really want
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10. visit new york
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11. talk in spanish more often
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12. sleep under the stars
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13. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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14. figure out what im going to do with my life
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15. make a difference
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16. get my drivers license
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17. kiss in the rain,apparently it romantic? lol
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18. work out every day
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19. go to japan
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20. become a better drummer
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21. become a better me!!
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22. be a better dancer
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23. fall in love
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24. be more outgoing
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25. stay on top of my crohns
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26. understand quantum physics
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27. take more pictures
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28. learn japanese
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29. go to a linkin park concert
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30. find a quote i can live by
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31. draw more
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32. live
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How I did it: well i just started doing jobs for people in my neighbourhood and well word of mouth spread and now iv been having jobs like every week and yeah so i was like yea i totally wanna work and they were like yea well i totally need someone to work and i was like omg yay and yea Read how I did it…
How I did it: well i think iv pretty much stopped this i mean there are some times that i start to pitty myself but then i just stop and think why the bloody hell am i putting myself down? what the heck other than getting myself depressed will this accomplish?...and well i just stopped and would think about something else and move on...though sometimes i forget to do it and get sad but its a process and ive gotten a good enough hold of it to be able to… Read how I did it…
How I did it: well you gotta keep at it and do wat the teacher tells you though now i gotta learn to read music sooo....yeah....it wants me to write more...=( well i like soda its just so fizzy and pops in your mouth kinda like pop rocks only the pops are not as big... Read how I did it…
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well to be honest what i want right now is for my life to not be so complicated, im pretty sure to most people it isnt but for the most part its never really been complicated all i had to do was live, try and be happy but now its harder to do those things well i mean with me being a senior and such i gotta figure out wht the bloody hell im gonna do with my life and thought i was on top of it but im not.
As for being happy well for the most part i am but wow yea, its much harder when part of your happiness is tied to another person and they can make you feel so much better like your ontop of the world but can instantly make you feel the exact opposite not that thats happend, well not purposely and not to a great extent but im kinda affraid of it happening…well thats the curse of hearting someone, but its more than worth it i think and i know she’d never do that with any intent behind it so….yea but theres an elegance in simplicity and i want to live it XD
i acctually have something to lose, its the most scary exciting feeling in the world. if i dont do this right i will lose it all. i will be right where i started, but i wont. i wont screw up. Ive got too much to lose…
so im in arizona for a week and well im gonna be honest i kinda really miss claudia. i mean dang, im thinking bout here alot and yea…kinda wish i coulda spent halloween with here back in michigan instead of visiting the fam, woulda been way more fun too =P. but ya… got three more days til i go back home. dont get me wrong arizonas a cool state and all but i kinda wanna go back home so i can see claudia along with all my friends but mostly her.
i just got ungrounded and she’s grounded for one week then we can finally hangout ya.
