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I am currently studying in Germany :)

I feel like in my life I am or have been surrounded my many negative/hypocrytical people. It rubs off on me. One of my really good friends is a negative person. Im just now realizing this. She is a really nice person, at heart. I know this because I have known her for several years…but she always has something negative to say or someone to talk about! I don’t want to be like that. I would not appreciate someone picking apart my every flaw, so what would make it okay for me to do it to someone else? I understand that everyone is different and we all have had differing experiences in life, so i have accept her for her. I think I am going to approach this goal by looking for the good in people, instead of the bad. To think about the positives instead of focusing on the negatives. I think we can learn something from every person that we meet…to take a good quality that they have and define it as a quality that we would like to embrace for ourselves. So instead of focusing on what a negative person she is…I will focus on the fact that I don’t want to be like that…I’ve learned a great lesson from her.

I have spent my entire life in a small town with my close circle of family and friends. In 2005 I went to college about 1 hour away from my house, far enough away to gain some independence…but not too far. I have neve been good with change…in high school I was an honor student, we dont like change. I have grown up with a syllabus…I knew when everything was do…my entire life revolved around an agenda. Today, I am studying in Europe. Yes, Europe…a pretty far away place for a girl who doesnt like change. I am surrounded by all of the tools needed to be succuessful here. I just can’t get over how much I miss home. The first month I was here I had the hardest time…I spoke with my mom and she helped me pin point my problem…I need to learn to become adaptable. This is sooo true, I have these plans worked out in my head of how everything should go and turn out, when it doesnt work, i get upset with myself or I feel like I was let down. I’ve got to realize that not everything in life revolves around an adgenda. That would be nice, yes, but it takes away the fun in life. Placing everything into a category or in a time slot only ruins its purpose.