cutigergrl7

It’s been 11 years since my high school graduation and I am now nearly 100 pounds heavier. I know you’re not supposed to weigh the same as you did in high school but 100 pounds is excessive. I have already lost 4 pounds this summer but I want to reach a goal of losing 70-80 pounds. I used to do weight watchers but I have no time for the meetings and if I don’t go to the meetings it’s hard for me to stay on track so I end up wasting money. I am determined to lose this weight though. I am tired of having a stomach that comes out as far as my size D breasts. I’m tired of having thighs that rub together and prevent me from wearing pantyhose b/c you can hear me coming from a mile away when I’m walking. I’m tired of not being able to find clothes that are fashionable and look great on me. And I’m tired of being insecure of the way I look and having people ask me if I’m pregnant when I’m not. This is a goal I hope to acheive by May of next year which will be my 30th birthday. If I can get it done sooner then all the better. What a wonderful birthday gift that would be for myself!

After having my dad tell me so many times that I’m too emotional I still didn’t get it. That is until now. I started dating a great guy a month ago and this past week has been very difficult. I didn’t hear from him for about 3 days and I started becoming paranoid as usual. I thought he was just gonna split which in my heart I knew better. I got so upset and when I finally was able to talk to him we got together and had a good talk. He told me I was too emotional. That’s when it hit me. My dad has always told me this but I didn’t want to believe it. Now that another special guy in my life has told me this I know I need to change. We decided to take a step back in our relationship and work on a friendship first then move towards a relationship. I took time to think about this and realized it’s the best thing for me. I need to work on myself and my emotions are the first thing I need to get under control. I want to have a lasting relationship with him and not to run him off. I’m so thankful he’s not one to freak out and run off with no warning.