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I have been driving myself to work every morning for the past week and taking my son to school. I cannot describe the feeling. I’m free. I still get nervous but I take my time and let those impatient drivers go around. Soon I will be going back to school and will have the confidence to drive myself home at night. I am so happy now because I won’t be stuck in the house anymore. Now I have to conquer the freeway, but I’m doing just fine taking the street for now.

THIS WEEKEND FOR THE FIRST TIME I DROVE IN THE CAR ALONE. I HAD MY SON’S FATHER ON SPEAKER. IT WAS LIKE AT 6 AM..THAT WAY I COULD TAKE MY TIME WITHOUT BEING RUSHED BECAUSE THE STREETS WERE PRETTY EMPTY. ONE CAR GOT ON MY TAIL BUT INSTEAD OF PANICING THIS TIME…I PULLED OVER SO THEY COULD GO AROUND. IT FELT GREAT. I ALWAYS HAVE A FEAR OF HAVING A WRECK WHEN IM ALONE OR THE CAR BREAKING DOWN IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE. I ALSO DROVE MY GRAMMA’S CAR..WHICH FEELS LIKE A HEARSE BUT I DID ALRIGHT. SOON I WILL BE ABLE DRIVING MYSELF IF I KEEP PRACTICING. THEN I CAN FIND A BETTER JOB AWAY FROM MY HOUSE AND MOVE WHERE I WANT INSTEAD OF MAKING SURE EVERYTHING IS ON A BUS ROUTE. I FEEL GOOD AND CANT WAIT UNTIL I HAVE MORE CONFIDENCE.

ABOUT 3 WEEKS AGO I WENT DRIVING WITH MY AUNT. SHE HAS A FAIRLY NEW BMW AND SHE TOLD ME TO GET IN. WELL WE CAME TO A SCHOOL’S EMPTY PARKING LOT AND SHE TOLD ME TO GET IN THE DRIVER’S SEAT. I WAS SHOCKED BECAUSE SHE RARELY LETS ANYONE SO MUCH AS MOVE HER CAR. ANYWAY I PRACTICED A BIT WITH HER AND BOTH OUR KIDS IN THE CAR…WHICH WAS ALWAYS A DISTRACTION. SHE SAID I DID VERY WELL AND I JUST NEED TO LEARN TO USE SPEED. SHE DRIVES LIKE BATMAN LOL BUT SHE HAS A POINT. THE CAR THAT IS IN MY POSSESION IS A MAZDA AND THE SLIGHTEST TAP SEEMS TO GIVE A JOLT OF SPEED. THAT SCARES ME. ON ANOTHER OCCASION WHICH WAS PAST SUNDAY MY GRAMMA’S CAR WOULDNT START. WELL THE MAZDA WAS BLOCKED IN. I HAD AN IDEA OF HER PUTTIN IN IN NEUTRAL WHILE MY AUNT AND I WOULD PUSH IT OUT AND WE GIVE IT A JUMP. WELL ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I GET NERVOUS ABOUT IS THE NEIGHBORS WATCHIN ME DRIVE BECAUSE THEY NEVER REALLY SEEN ME DO IT. MY AUNTS IDEA WAS TO HAVE THE NEIGHBOR HELP HER PUSH WHILE I BACK THE OTHER ONE OUT. IT WAS RAINING AND COLD THAT DAY. WITHOUT THINKING TWICE I TOOK A DEEP BREATH AND DID IT. I DIDNT HAVE THAT NERVOUS FEELING AT ALL. I SUPRISED MYSELF BY BEING CALMER THAN I USUALLY AM. IF I CAN JUST THINK IN TERMS OF SPEED CONTROL I WILL GET THIS DOWN.