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I feel like i have no will power to do anything hence most of the goals i’ve listed are to do with effort and importance which scare me…so from now on i’m going to make a record…of how long i can go without drugs and cigarettes….and also try and be optimistic i guess..lol

I endulge in the odd recreational drug and i’m not proud of it, not because i think it’s wrong but because i think it’s the easy way out of dealing with things. I need to take control and stop procrastinating from what’s really significant.

For most of my education i haven’t been motivated and that just seems like the teenage way but now that i’m going to university and it still seems to be there i’m starting to feel worried. Like i’m going to waste my time and other people’s if i try and accomplish something…plus there is the effort factor. I just need to get off my lazy ass and do something with my life that’s fulfilling and meaningful…( i realise everything here is corny but writing it down seems to make me focus more)