Texas Lin

Tonight I am reading the Food Network magazine that a friend gave me a subscription for Christmas. I am also thinking of my life list on 43 Things.

Then I had the thought if I do go back to the city and go back into the financial corporate world my creativity will die again…there will be no Cheznanigans or Garden of Hope or Childrens Art Cafe or any of the wonderfully imaginative things I want to do.

I’m glad they (mortgage bankers) gave me the reassurance that I am still valuable. I truly needed that confirmation.

But I’m thinking if I put my fears aside wonderful things could happen here in the wilderness with all the mischief I could stir up attracting my creative projects into reality.

Now I am getting much bolder in this mastering the law of attraction mindset. ;)

I am actually starting to believe the e e cummings quote that goes out with all of my e-mails.

“Once we believe in ourselves, we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any experience that reveals the human spirit.”e. e. cummings

I am crazy for wanting to leave God’s Country of the wilds of Montana to go back to the concrete jungle of city life in Texas. If either of them could they would move to the mountains for the lifestyle in a minute.

Emotionally I agree with them except the dream of living in the mountains is much prettier than the reality. You can’t eat the scenery. Plain and simple. My Boy Scout son disagrees with me on that but he gets my point.

I am not making any rash decisions until the gas company comes to my door to turn off my heat. Happily I am caught up on utilities so I am safe for now but there has to be a break here for an income for me to consider staying.

to the bank in Texas. This morning I wrote a narrative explaining each situation and how it affected my credit/background check for the last 15 years. I was surprised that what I had always considered to be very painful was easy to write about today.

You can imagine my further surprise when I wrote how natural it will be to handle each of the lingering problems and the optimism I have for the future.

I was very proud to write of the lessons I learned through my trials and how I would react differently today because of my experiences. I have grown through all the pain.

I sent it off to the HR department right before noon not expecting to hear anything for weeks if ever. About 3 this afternoon I received an e-mail that my background had been cleared and they are processing my national licensing for Texas to be a Loan Officer for their mortgage banking division.

After the shock wore off it finally hit me that I can go home! I am well and have my professional career offered back to me after spending 3 years in the wilderness struggling for the basics.

To be truthful I am still shaking with happiness and awe of how the infinitely abundant universe and my Higher Power have answered my prayers and intent of attracting a new job into my life.

Did I mention I can go home fully employed and ready for a brighter future? :)