and pulmonary emboli I had a new appreciation of life. There were dreams and schemes of becoming more creative and leaving the serious decisions to others. I quickly fell back into my comfort zone where I was not recovering physically or emotionally from the trauma of the previous few years. People around me treated me with kid gloves for fear of what they had seen happen to me.
So I moved to the wilderness thinking a change of scenery would make my life healthier and happier. I didn’t know a soul so I could reinvent myself to be anyone I want to be.
It has taken me a couple of years to realize it was a good move for me to come to know who I have evolved into is as ok as anyone else.
I didn’t have to totally reinvent myself just enhance my true inner self.
One of the decisions I had made when I survived my near death experience was that I would be the fun loving, eccentric grandmama
to my grandchildren who they will remember their entire lives.
Being 2500 miles away I am wasting precious time without them. Better make some tracks in 2010 and connect to the things that are most important. :)
