In one week’s time it will be ten years from the day my mother celebrated her last birthday.
Today I went through some old letters and things and found some words of wisdom and encouragement. I also discovered some letters I’d never seen before, letters she wrote to my dad before they married, a card with a note written the day after I was born.
I’m inspired and encouraged on so many levels by this.
Some of what I read brought tears to my eyes, but overall it was a positive encounter and I feel better for it.
I know that my mom loved me, I’ve always known that, but it’s still tough. It’s been nearly ten years since I’ve seen her. At the time I was just a kid who thought I already knew it all and so much of our time together was the day to day stuff, then at the end her health was a limitation.
There weren’t many of the big talks, the motherly advice I wish I had to reflect upon.
I found one forgotten letter that was especially poignant talking about change and goals. In light of things that have been going on in my life; my struggle with inertia and the impending closure of 43Things- which is possibly the greatest tool I’ve had for setting, tracking, and achieving my goals- the message couldn’t come at a better time.
“I believe the process is the same no matter what the change is that you are trying to make: You set your big goal, you set little goals along the way, you determine the steps you need to take along the way, and you actively pursue it until you achieve success. I believe you can achieve anythinh you make your mind up to achieve! The question is, have you made up your mind? And if not, why not?
I love you and am praying for your success.
I love you too, Mom