daVina

growing up in the ghetto i never felt like i fit in especially being the baby in the family. there wasn’t anything i was into, not even music. i grew up with more freedom than any kid could handle but in a sense i was sheltered.when i hit about 13 i pretty much discovered music mainly rock. Green day, offspring, nirvana & sublime opened up doors for me. when my siblings came home they teased me by saying i was weird b/c i was play AC/DC or Metallica. this made me feel alienated b/c everyone i knew listened rap & r&b.through out my teen years into adult hood i was very angry.i always voiced my opinion as i do today although i was very abrasive then.i convinced myself that my family hated me. By the time i grew up a bit & stopped being so mad but my family didn’t believe me. to prove myself to them whenever it was someones birthday or Christmas i always bought the best & most expensive gifts to gain their love. so basically i tried desperately for years to gain their acceptance & it never worked. finally i considered it a lost cause & focused my energy on accepting myself.i figured that they were going to judge me anyway so i might as well be my whole & true self. so i started wearing clothes i liked & even dyed my hair colors like purple, black & red. At first my family was shocked & asked me if i just wanted attention & why. i simply told them i’m being me, that i finally felt normal & that i’m happy. around a year later my family just started inviting my to family get togethers. now we all hang out & it doesn’t have to be a holiday. my family pays me complements now & its awesome to feel loved. it took a very long time but it was a very easy & simple life lesson to learn.all i had to do is accept myself enough to feel worthy.

you will know if you’ve fallen in love with the right or wrong person its very easy. if they are wrong your not in love.if they are the right person you will just know it because its stronger than you. its as strong as the both of you finally together.if your in love with the right person you don’t see what they see in themselves as flawed you see it as cute & adorable. in fact their flaws are what you love about that person the most.the right person will “SEE” you for all that you are. they will love & care for all that you care about. your passions will become their passion because they want the world for you. they will love & see great things in you that you can’t see yourself. they will ignite a fire in you that the world will see & people will say wow your so happy your glowing!

i smoked for 12 years & one day my fiance ask me to quit so i said okay this will be my last one. as i smoked that last cigarette i though hard about why i liked to smoke & it was because it gave me something to do when i was bored & i wanted to get away or just seem busy.i still liked my smoke breaks so i still went out to them at work plus thats where all my friends were out side smoking. instead of having a cigarette I’d have a v8 juice.it kept me & my oral fixation busy plus i was putting something healthy in my body.
i never used the patch or any medication i just decided to make healthier choices.