Today was awful, the pts kept coming one after another, I was hours behind on my work. But that was okay, I took a deep breath and kept at it, I never got everything I wanted accomplished, but one pt of mine, maybe the sickest, was crying from intractable pain and I stopped held her hand, talked quietly to her until she calmed down. She died a few hours later… maybe I can be a good nurse.
I am not going to set the alarm and I will not worry about when I wake up, I will when I am ready!
Not exactly everyday, like I would like but one day at a time right?
I miss that feeling, that everything feeling in your stomach when you are crazy in love. Its been a while, so I think I will begin to date again and maybe, just maybe… who knows?
wow today was insane, i was called every name in the book, i think i made at least ninety mistakes, and was very ackward, i hope i figure this out soon. I breezed through nursing school and thought i was perfectly capable of doing this job with my eyes closed. Today proved how wrong I was!
I just recieved my nursing license. I know I should be excited. I am terrified. While in school I always thought I would be working in a nursing home. You know, basically a pill pusher. No, instead I got a great job working in a hospital. I feel like I am in way over my head and that when the other nurses find out they are going to fire me. I have already seen more in the first two weeks than I saw in clinicals at school. I am keeping my fingers crossed that I will be good at this or at least not kill any one!
You are so right, I found a job, it pays well, it has room to advance, benifits are great, it is almost 50 miles away from my house. The drive takes about an hour. But I know that i will be working there for years unless they fire me cause I hate to interview.
Took the NClex last week, found out that I passed this week. Can not say how estatic that I am… especially since I finally found a job last week and did not have anytime to study. Although it was nothing I could have studied for anyway, and I did it.
I hate interviews, applications, cover letters and resumes, but mostly I hate to look for a job. I think the next time a prospective employer asks me what I will be doing in the next 10 years I can honestly say, well if you hire me I will be working for you in 10 years because I hate interviews and finding a new job feels like breaking a limb off to me.