dbsteph00

I dont know why I can not stop lying. I lie if it seems like it will put me in a better position. Like if my fiance catches me up in a white lie, i will deny and deny… even when he is confronting me with the truth. or… asking for the truth, i still lie and tell him i do not know. for example: he was out of town.. i surfed the internet, i then cleared my history because I didnt want him to see that I was looking at porn. I give him a hard time becasue of the amount he looks at, I didnt want to be a hypacrite. but that all bit me in the ass when we went to go to a web site that was in our history bar, but wasnt there anymore. “why did you clear the history?” ” i didn’t” “Yes you did.. no i didnt,. yes you did i know computers… you cleared the history. ok fine I went to this one site.. i didnt want to be a hypacrite… that was just today…

I guess I look at my lieing that I’m adjusting stories to peoples benefit so that they dont stress on me(i.e. my famly) I wont fabricate HUGE stories or anything.. but I will omit things, wont exactly let them in on what is going on.

to my best friend in the entire WORLD, i did not tell her for a month after my man proposed. why? I didnt want to hear the negative things she had to say. When I told her a month later. she was happy for me, and excited. but then she said.. are you sure you want this? how could i be so stupid to be afraid of my best friend?

months of little lies… why cant i stop? how do I stop? where can I turn to so that I will not lie

I dont get it. I used to live my life by: always tell the truth, you wont get caught up in the end. what hapened to that girl? did I leave her at the door with my reprasenative who was independent wouldn’t take shit from anyone, yet was nice and kind when she liked you? has my relationshiop changed me this much? is that what love does to you.. makes you so crazy you start doing stupid shit?

I used to lie alot when I was young. I thought I grew out of it, but now im back into it. maybe when I thought that I was out of it, i really just wasn’t keeping anyone close enough to call me on it.

please help. any suggestions. i want to stop!!!