dbubturner

So you know the quote that goes somewhat like this, “you have to kiss a lot of toads before you find your prince charming”? Screw that quote. I’m sick of dating jerks. I’m not into dating around anymore. I just want to find a respectful man who treats me well, and I want to love him and be loved in return. I always seem to settle for guys I know won’t treat me well. I MUST stop doing this, and wait for the right guy. Its just that having patience is so difficult. I find myself wanting the right guy to come in my life on my own timing..but im realizing its probably best to wait. But then again…how do you know if hes the right one to fall in love with??? arrrrgh.

Sometimes its just so hard for me to actually sit down and read the Bible. I open it up, and my mind goes a thousand other places. I have trouble focusing on what im reading. Its really bad. Anyways, I want to read my Bible every day. To be honest..i haven’t read my Bible in about 3 weeks…
Reading the Bible keeps me grounded. And I NEED to read it every day.

I’m such a pushover. I want to make everyone happy, but in the end it just turns out to be huge mess. I’m sloooowly learning to speak up and voice my opinions…but its so difficult. I know i won’t get far in life if all i do is try to please others. I’ll end up living someone else’s life instead of mine – I’ll pursue other’s dreams instead of my own.
I hate causing conflict though. I hate drama. And I hate making a situation more complicated…
EFF.