Maybe it really isn’t the job i hate but the people I work with!! Had Christmas party the other week and all most of em can do is moan about what others are wearing. So what if my top was a litle low. They do my head in by constantly bitching. Must stand up for myself and stop being such an easy pushover.
Can’t bring myself to leave & I keep convincing myself it’s not that bad. Especially in the current climate as I know I’m lucky to have a job. I just get so distracted now and bored at times.
I think I’m actually scared of leaving. Maybe 2010 will be the year I tackle touch decisions like this one!!....I hope anyway.
Still holding out for “the one”.
It’s something I crave so much for. I love the idea of just curling up on the sofa with the man i love and knowing that he feels exactly the same way about me. A mutual respect and a longing to be with that person for the rest of my life. I really hope it does exist for me!!!
...but everytime I receive any sort of compliment i automatically think they don’t mean it. Thats so stupid. I know it’s all down to learning to love myself and being confident with who I am it’s just more difficult to put in to practice.
I need to try harder to become motivated. I recently started salsa dancing classes so i’m hoping that, that will help in time. Especially as it starts to get faster the more we learn. Think i’m gonna start walking more too.
I started a salsa dancing class at the beinging of the year and i’m really enjoying it. It’s helping my confidence and it’s great mixing with a group of people who are all really nice. It helps that they are at the same level of experience as me so no one is trying to show off. :) Time will tell if i’m actually any good but i’m trying.
I found out that certain people have been bitching about me behind my back. It’s something that I always thought happened, (I mean they do it about everyone else) but to actually know hurts like hell. Constantly trying to put on a brave face and pretend that it’s not bothering me. Easier said then done!! :(
Work really got me down today. I try so hard to be all they want me to be but my best is never good enough. Really think i’ve got to get out soon. Came home and updated my CV. Thats one little step in the right direction. :)
I’ve just come to the end or Prisoner and i’m still loving them. :) I can’t wait to see how the film for Half Blood Prince is gonna turn out. Shame its release has been put back to next summer though.
I have started doing a little bit every night and actually found out a pile of old magazine cut outs from the teen magazines I brought when I was younger. Growing up in the 90’s it was full of pictures and interviews of guys I liked back then… Boyzone / Take That / Shane from Home and Away (Oh My God!!!) As much as I don’t need these cut outs now they did make me smile especially as thats what I was spending my hard earned pocket money on at the time.
I first heard of Brad Paisley when he did a preformance at the Country Music Awards a few years back. After that I had to go out and buy all his albums. I especially love the song Little Moments. He’s got a great way of not only touching people when he writes his songs but also making you smile.
I’ve set myself a target to lose 4lbs by the end of September. Thats only 1lb a week. If I start to complete little steps hopefully I’ll be able to get closer to my target weight by Christmas.
Even though I don’t know where i’ll be in 2012 I actually registered to become a volunteer yesterday.I might not be successful in getting in. I just thought it would be a good way of getting involved and to keep this goal active for the next 4 years. Fingers Crossed!!!
On my recent trip to London I managed to walk round this. The whole history of the Tower fascinates me. Unfortunately due to time and needing to be somewhere else… I had a schedule :) I never got a chance to go inside but that’s top of my list next time I visit London.
I’m still loving this. Actually managed to contact one of my relatives in America!! He sent me loads more information and copies of photo’s of some of my great, great, grand parents. Family History is just so cool.
Well with the use of the Wii Fit i’ve managed to lose 7lbs in just over two months…. Not great but i’m getting there.
Finally got round to buying one of these recenty and it’s ace. Used it to film a lot of London. Only been once before and was able to do the whole sight seeing thing from the top of an open top bus!!! Wish i’d got hold of one ages ago. Love it!!
Loved it, loved it, loved it!!! Suddenly it was 1995 again. They were amazing.
I’ve never really done confrontation but deep down I know I should stand up for myself more. The thing is I don’t want to upset people.
