Blew it. This was my chance to impress people, to overcome my crappy grades and try and create the future that I want. I’m too afraid, too anxious, too lazy. This is why I stayed in school and avoided getting a job, but now looking for residencies, instead of getting the great grades I needed to be chosen, I have to makeup for it, by impressing people and getting personal interaction to trump who I am on paper. And I am failing at that too. I am mediocre all-round.
But Monday I have a set of fresh faces to “impress.” And again after one month, and then again in Nov. Hopefully with all the people I meet, someone will take a liking to me.
Aug 28, 2008, 03:46PM PDT | 0 comments
I cannot remember the last time I was ahead of time for anything. Now I have my applications, personal statement and, CV to write and I need to submit them early if I stand a chance of getting in. I don’t know how to break the vicious cycle or procrastinating -> feeling guilty -> procrastinating again.
Sometimes I think I am trapped in this and subconsciously sabottaging my success, other times I feel that nothing ever goes my way. But most likely I just lazy and need to get off my butt and start working!!!
Aug 21, 2008, 07:37PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
Although I had written this goal in 43 things, I never thought I would actually get this. It was supposed to be one of those “reach for the moon and you’ll at least catch a star.” But I caught the moon!!! So excited about this score. Hopefully this will boost my self-esteem and I will be more confident in pursuing my dreams.
Aug 21, 2008, 07:24PM PDT | 1 cheer | 1 comment
I'm doing 41 things
