depplycutwounds93

i want to fall in love i want to feel that chill that u get when he feels your hand, that tingle u get when u stare into his eyes, and the feeling of just kissing him and just putting everythiing you have into him and loving and trusting him, i want to feel it again.
HIM

His eyes meet mine, 
 Were there in the still queit,
  His hands run down to my hips,
 Sending light pink clouds printed
  on the apples of my cheeks
So i head for a kiss,
 melting into each others innocence,
Never did i imagine loving you 
 could feel like this,
the moment was unbreakable, 
 in the silence,
In the thought,
 of actually kissing,
Of actually holding,
 Him.
               by:me

Something i want to feel again...

the thoughts are just starting to sink in, why am i thinking about this. i mean i have plenty of reasons to do it, but there is more good things to live for and im just not ready to give it all up. god is really blessing me and helping through this:)

i want to but i cant. so many people would be so dissapointed. i have to keep telling myself not to do it, but its like theres someone telling me in my head of mine just to do it. i am trying to get close to god right now but just knowing i could turn around and do the wrong thing, it could ruin eternal life with god, it would be crazy to choose this world over eternity. but my life is not good and it could feel so good just to let the anger out on myself because im tired of taking it out on everyone else, because that doesnt make nothin’ better. taking emotional pain and turning it into physical pain could be so much better, and it would actually be me incontrol of something, since i cant help all the other stuff that goes wrong in my life. i feel like im the only one like this but i know im not, it just feels as if theres just no one like that around to help me, to help each other anymore. my best friend and i were like that last year together and i really helped her to quit cutting but it feels like im still stuck in that place and i was just kind of left alone. me and her are still friends but she just cant understand me anyomre, and it seems like no body can if its not her.

Pretty pictures on her wrists,
 Depressing thoughts on her mind,
Screaming her silent tears,
 Everyone believed her when she said,

"I'm fine."