depressionABC

im 15 years old this year and i have been in depression since i was young when my parents started fighting. everyday i ask myself why im still alive and going to school. i have friends who are helping me everyday and i have fallen in love with the girl of my dreams.

everything was almost perfect when i was 13 until i moved to australia where i know miss everyone i know overseas. i miss my father who looks after me and i feel guilty of leaving him behind. stuck in aus with my mom is a very sad thing…she is constantly nagging and cussing . she doesnt clean,wash,take care of us very well and the appartment is in a mess.

she clogs up the sink and she scolds me. when i have troubles in my school work all she does is bring me down further. my family is in a mess all of us are suffering..my father is sad because my mom is always making her children sad and depressed, my older brother is so violent once he tried to kill my father and i coudnt do anything to stop him..

my mother has turned my brother agaisnt all of us and the olderbrother i used to play powerangers with is no gone and replaced with a violent no brained idiot. my sister suffers from depression as do i and constantly tries to keep herself busy. i am coming very close to givving up life..

the girl whom im falin for doesnt even knwo it. and ive got no chance .

i feel guilty for everything…i feel useless…worthless and im crying right now as im writing this post. i have nothing here.but i dont want to die i want to get better…any advice?

im 15 years old this year and i have been in depression since i was young when my parents started fighting. everyday i ask myself why im still alive and going to school. i have friends who are helping me everyday and i have fallen in love with the girl of my dreams.

everything was almost perfect when i was 13 until i moved to australia where i know miss everyone i know overseas. i miss my father who looks after me and i feel guilty of leaving him behind. stuck in aus with my mom is a very sad thing…she is constantly nagging and cussing . she doesnt clean,wash,take care of us very well and the appartment is in a mess.

she clogs up the sink and she scolds me. when i have troubles in my school work all she does is bring me down further. my family is in a mess all of us are suffering..my father is sad because my mom is always making her children sad and depressed, my older brother is so violent once he tried to kill my father and i coudnt do anything to stop him..

my mother has turned my brother agaisnt all of us and the olderbrother i used to play powerangers with is no gone and replaced with a violent no brained idiot. my sister suffers from depression as do i and constantly tries to keep herself busy. i am coming very close to givving up life..

the girl whom im falin for doesnt even knwo it. and ive got no chance .

i feel guilty for everything…i feel useless…worthless and im crying right now as im writing this post. i have nothing here.but i dont want to die i want to get better…any advice?