I want to overcome the feelings of worthlessness and sadness. Not for a day or for a week, but for life. I know every day won’t always be peachy, but I have been spending more time feeling down than up and its hindering me from living my life the way I want.
determinedmom's Life List
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1. make more friends
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2. be fluent in spanish
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3. clean out the clutter
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4. take a photography course
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5. write an autobiography
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6. lose 70 pounds
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7. NOT live paycheck to paycheck
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8. make love in the rain
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9. meet ll cool j
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10. build a website and work from home
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11. face my fear of being alone
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12. Learn a new word every day
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13. beat my depression
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14. travel more
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15. Set realistic standards and expectations
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16. find myself
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17. have clear skin
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18. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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19. To live instead of exist
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20. Clean My House and Keep It Clean
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21. organize my life
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22. learn to speak french
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I am making it a goal to really find myself. Now whether I am actually lost or not, I am not sure…but it mos def feels that way sometimes. I have spent so much time getting by, I don’t think I know much about what makes me happy. I even pick up the accents of people I am talking to sometimes…wtf is that? I am not trying to be like them and I am not doing it on purpose. Its embarassing because I don’t want to give the impression I am trying to be someone I am not. So I want to spend more time getting to know all of me…good, bad and the ugly!
Its not that I don’t clean, cause I do. My house is not filthy, its cluttered and disorganized. Clothes everywhere, magazine stacks up the ceiling practically and my kitchen table stays so buried there is no room for all of us to eat on it. I will go and clean the whole house and within a week its right back to chaos. I don’t blame my son entirely, I know I have my lazy days. I just want to get to the point where the upkeep of my home is not so draining!
