devine_learner

I dont know if soulmate is necessarily the right word. I dont even really care about that I guess. I just wish I could meet someone that wasnt an asshole. My current situation is so miserable and I’ll probably stay that way. What else can I do? I just wish I could fall in love with someone capable of the love I give. I wish I could just connect with him on a level that was special or something along those lines. I wish the person I was with would adore me instead of apperantly hate me. I wish I met a man who didnt laugh when I cried, or didnt hurt me because I say no to something. I wish I even just knew one person who was caring and loved me.

Well, I was going to wait, but I decided it would probably be best if I shortened these things up anyway. I havent been able to get much research done. But I have been checking in on my prospect regularly.
I’ve seen him 3 times since my last log. The first time I was picking up some protien bars at his work. (My boyfriend works out a lot so, he for some reason is under the impression these are necessary) He is usually really happy to see me and friendly. This day though he was pissed and stomping around the store. He wouldnt look up and he didnt even acknowledge me. Not even when I went to pay. I did remember to pay attention to his eyes this time. And although I still cannot say if they match with the sites miheal (sorry if thats spelled wrong, I didnt want to go back and check) has been posting. I can say this day they were an extremely dark brown, almost to black. Maybe his eyes change with his emotion?
I had to go their again the next day to get gas, I went in to pay and he seemed irritated as again this day. I made more of an effort this time to cheer him up, because I figured, it does have to suck dealing with all the people who come in and out. I also made sure to invite him over to hang out with us. He promised to come by, as long as we were awake. (He always jokes that we go to bed to early in the night) This day his eyes were a little less brown. I noticed. And for some reason I was always under the impression he had blue eyes, so I’ve been mystified by the fact that he has brown eyes, I usually dont have a bad memory for faces.
The third time I’ve seen him was the next day after this. He didnt come by the night I’d invited him too. But the next night he stopped by. I feel pretty uncomfortable allowing people I dont know super well into my house w/ out my boyfriend their, especially when I am not sure of their species. So I told him that my boyfriend wasnt home but he would be back in about an hour. He said “well, I’ve been drinking, and you know how tired that can make you.” Except, i dont know how tired that can make you. Everytime I get drunk I stay up for hours. So I was confused, am I reading to much into that?

Now now, thats not very nice.
I thought you were ending it with your one word.
Also I’m not a boy.
Okay, so I tried to stop arguing with him, just so everyone knows, but I guess he likes me, and I have to admit, I do enjoy reading his ideas. Or rather my ideas twisted into something a little more ignorant.
Anyway. Hopefully everyone on this forum isnt like this. Otherwise, I dont see how anyone will accomplish any of their goals.