dharmastar

Do not pursue the past.
Do not lose yourself in the future.
The past no longer is.
The future has not yet come.
Looking deeply at life as it is.In the very here and now, the practitioner dwells in stability and freedom.
We must be diligent today.
To wait until tomorrow is too late.
Death comes unexpectedly.
deon waste your time regreting yesterday or planning tomorrow.

it doesnt hurt to dream… at least for me i dont know how much more to dream. i always try having a hope in my heart that “the one” is already somewhere hiding in this planet, but at the same time when in this world is he gonna show up i dont want to be the girl who ends up with some dude just because she thought he was the one or no one else, im not picky but i know what i want and ive heard from ppl ur never gonna find exactly what ur looking for so might as well settle down and be ok with what or who comes u way. but WHY!!!!! why should i have to be content with someone or somethingi know is not in my plans, as much as i want to fall in love and have a movie like feeling for someone i dont want to just be with someone anyone. and i am not picky but i do of course have my preferences which are very very simple so i dont know why it is so god damn difficult for me to find my one! all i want is a person with true feelings, with a huge heart, a person who loves animals and nature, a person who can express their feelings on a pieace of paper, a person who makes me something for a special occasion such as a song a poem a picture rather than to buy m something some other man created,a person who is free of labels, a person who seeks freedon im all of its aspects,a person who loves adventure and doing new things without been afraid of falling, a person who would love me for who i am and how i am, now for the superficial aspect i want or prefer a guy light eyes i dont know why i have a thing for lighter color eyes such as green, blue baby blue anythiung that reminds me of the sky or nature lol thats just the superficial part of me tho all of the above are waaay much more important of course. but this man i have in mind never shows around me and if he does he’s not mine he’s either someoneelses, doesnt even notice me or is gay…. :( realy really all i want is just to fall in love.

i thought i did, but i let it pass by or maybe not i still dont know i fell in love with a guy that “liked me too” but never went past that. i turned him down one time when he asked me out because i have only met him for maybe a week or two, i wasnt ready to automaticaly start dating him…. after rejecting him things went down hill, now we dont even see each other anymore, i know he has a girlfriend (im not sure how serious it is) there is a second guy on the side that seems to want to have a fling only and i have a hard time opening to him b/c in my heart i know i want something special not just a one night stand, how do i know that this second guy im givin a hard time getting throu me is not another guy #1 ill later regret rejecting?:( i dont want a prince charming , i dont want flowers and gifts all i want is a person that i can trust my heart to, a person i can sit around to watch the night fall, a guy who i can kiss and give my heart to, a guy who would help me and make me want to be a better person, someone to visit new places with, someone who makes me feel beautiful, i just want that someone i can tell secrets no one else knows about me, i want that someone to care for and care for me i just want to fall in love…. :(