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1. stop dreading tomorrow
1 person
2. move out
3,101 people
3. exercise regularly
1 entry 10,582 people
4. cut my hair
320 people
5. read Breaking Dawn
1 entry 151 people
6. philosophize with someone
1 person
7. make new friends
1 entry . 1 cheer 12,798 people
8. pass college
49 people
9. turn 21
111 people
10. be friendlier
1 entry . 1 cheer 119 people
11. get wind of an eighth harry potter novel
1 entry 1 person
12. feel beautiful
1 entry . 1 cheer 2,056 people
13. see Batman
1 person
14. write
1,372 people
15. live in the moment
1 entry 1,935 people
16. pretend i never went to high school
1 entry 1 person
17. help somebody in a completely inconveniencing way
1 person
18. think before speaking
24 people
19. buy new clothes with someone else's money
1 person
20. marry michael buble
4 people
21. learn spanish
15,601 people
22. stop hating myself
444 people
23. set a goal that's not impossible
1 person

Recent entries

Untitled 17 months ago

i am plagued by the memory of high school. people that could have cared less about me, but pretended to care more because it suited them at the time. teachers who were hard pressed to remember my name. a constant barrage of people and information and noises. its like a very vivid nightmare, and i just want to therapize it away.

Jul 15, 2008, 08:53PM PDT | 0 comments

live in the moment

trapped inside ... an involuntary bubble 17 months ago

i’ve always used disconnection as a sort of defense mechanism, and it seems to have come back to bite me in the ass. i live far removed from reality, and am annoyed by the fact that tv show characters’ lives are more real to me than my own. i honestly have no idea how to become a normal person, but i wish i could bring myself to enjoy the present as its happening, instead of retreating from it and then just reliving it later.

Jul 15, 2008, 08:51PM PDT | 2 cheers | 1 comment

feel beautiful

i want to see pigs fly... or at least flap their wings a little 17 months ago

wanting to “feel beautiful” is parallel to saying i want to “be happy”, in that they are both things i can never do. and i surely want to feel pretty and be happy, but this is real life and so i’m probably going to be miserable forever.

Jul 15, 2008, 08:47PM PDT | 1 comment

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