dieErleberin

As far as I am concerned, there seem to be 2 kinds of decisions and 2 criteria which make them “better” for me:
- small-range-decisions, important enough to think about (because of investment of money and time) but no big deal for “life as a whole” and the real big, life-changinging ones
- the way a decision is made and its outcome.

Strangely, I seem to have learned to solve the “big” matter before the small matter, meanig that I:
- set myself a goal (What do I want to achieve with this decision?)
- gather information
- set a time limit as to when I come to a final decision
- take the decision and (yes!) rid myself of all thoughts about what the alternatives could have done me good.

Actually, I noticed that the trouble with my decisons was that I started doubting their outcome as soon as I had taken them, thus not feeling comfortable in the situation created by that very decision and not giving me a chance to experience its good sides. Well, this seems to go better now…

Life is the most valuable thing we have. And I already am sometimes sorry I cannot go back to those moments and periods I went through. I think it would be pretty reveiling and that my own past life would be a good teacher for the future.

This is the strangest fear you’ve ever heard of. Actually, I am not among those who pass out at the sight of a needle (in fact, I regularly go and donate blood). Also, I succeed at convincing myself that sometimes it’s just better to go and see a doctor. But with your heart racing and pumping and your blood pressure up so that he looks as you like you’re really ill (which I’m definitely not), it’s a horrible experience every time, even starting the day before. Plus, I think them knowing how I “really” feel makes it difficult to apply my strategy of acting normal at the premiere (like in public speaking, university exams…) and being normal the second…