disgustipated

I added pure Jojoba oil to my regiment on the advice of people on acne.org. Jojoba oil isnt really an oil but a plant wax, from what I understand. Each morning after I wash my face with the Dr. Bronners peppermint soap, I add 2 drops to my damp face and pat dry. Then I lightly splash water on my face and pat dry again. The jojoba oil has made my skin tone more even, smooth, and is fading some of the red marks. I never dreamed I could get my skin this clear! If this keeps up Im marking it off my list.

I bought Beta-sitoserol tablets and zinc gluconate tablets…guess what? I am about 70% clearer than I was before! It worked quick, within a day I could begin to see the difference. Also, the redness has disappeared, I guess since one of those is an anti-inflammatory.
I am a 24/f had acne for 10 years, small whiteheads and overall bad texture and blotchiness. Doesnt sound that bad but I have a lot of scarring, and they were extremely persistant. Oh, another thing that works- baking soda, it will bring your whiteheads to the surface so that they can be exhumed :)
Next I am going to try Vitamin A, and some sort of topical (perhaps zinc oxide). I have heard that mega-dosing with Vitamin B5 is also effective, but can be dangerous.

I wrote:
“I must accept that my life is not how I wanted, and that time is going by fast and life is constantly changing.
I must accept that I cannot control the future, no matter how much I worry or try to plan ahead. I can do my best, but ultimately time will tell how things turn out. It is out of my control to make things “perfect”, or exactly how I want them. I have to stop living solely in the future and not enjoying my present at all because of it. I must accept imperfection, be grateful with what I have, and enjoy things in everyday life. I must relinquish my control, and accept that which, even with the most effort, I cannot change.”
Wow, I should right a fucking book! This is the way to go, I have done what I said I should do. It is not that I will accept things that are inferring with my life forever, but it is letting life unfold at it’s own pace, accepting the bad with the good, trying to stay positive, and enjoying whatever you have even if it’s not much. I feel better now that I did before. Letting go is easy- 1) realize the world doesn’t revolve around YOU, you live on it…2) Life changes so often that almost nothing is solid 3) Perfection is unobtainable 4) If someone truly loves you, you have more than you could want!