divajjs

Well, I finally IM her and said how are you. I got nothing back. I said I guess we are that bad. I got nothing. I was very stupid for contacting. So stupid.

Between the holidays, a death of someone I admired and my best friend not even caring I lost someone because she’s to busy hanging out with my ex, I’m depressed again. I mean she’s so busy with my ex that she forgot that I even lost someone. I finally understand why people don’t like the holidays. On NYE I was in tears and on Christmas……lets just say it was a bad day. There is no contact at all with my ex and I haven’t seen my pet in forever because “I’m not aloud.” I’m starting to move away from everyone whose friends with my ex, but how when that’s everyone. I’ve been thinking about moving to Cali on the other side of the country….nobody is there just a future for me, maybe. When is this chapter of my life going to end?

Thank you and we will all make it our own way. It’s just nice to know that someone is reading and somehow unfortunately lost like you are riding in the same boat or cruise.