A fish with many fins

If things quiet down and distractions would not get in my way it would be easier, I guess.

I loved yoga since back then my teacher believed in me and supported me. Now that he’s away, I felt that my yoga practice anchored on him rather than my own personal experience of it. I used to dream about being a yoga teacher too and go to India to study.

Now that things have changed and my work is still the priority, I wonder how can I shift my dreams into reality. Should I just go with the flow and be passive about the things that I need to do or take command of my own ship and drive it to the course of my dream.

Let’s see in a few months or a year. I’m not getting younger. I should take those chances of getting closer to my dreams. It’s never too late.

“It isn’t a calamity to die with dreams unfulfilled, but it
is a calamity not to dream. It isn’t a disgrace not to
reach the stars, but it is a disgrace to have no stars
to reach for. Not failure but low aim is the concern.”
- Benjamin Elijah Mays (1895-1984)

- I have accomplished a lot of work today. I breezed through a bunch of work in the morning and was able to go to my meeting on time (because my client is late too).

- So the stock market was down and I have some paper losses. I’m grateful to have gone through the double dip in October that it made me learn how to manage losses better… and the losses did not felt as bad as back then.

- I was able to help my brother invest in a mutual fund account. He’s lucky to have been able to enter at a bearish rate (hence, it’s cheaper).

- For the reminder that I need to give back. I still have that promise to give donation to a hospital. (I might work on this tomorrow)

- I’m happy to have talked to my parents and brother tonight. I’m grateful for my family.

- I am also grateful for the take-home food for my dogs. I know I spoiled them that they don’t like to eat their dog food anymore. Haha.

- I am grateful for my plants: the new morning glory plants that sprouted from the seed, the small barrel cactus that finally bloomed (it’s scarlet!).

- Grateful for the cookies that I’ve been munching tonight.

- ... for the new lamp I bought.

- I’m also grateful for our old clients who went back to us (side story: she’s pregnant and she’s praying that I’ll get pregnant too soon). :-)

- I am also happy to have accomplished something difficult at work. I hope tomorrow will be the breakthrough.

- I am grateful to have realized earlier that being busy is good. It makes my mind sharp too.

- I am also grateful that my husband’s shop has been finally put up. He’ll be busy for work now (he used to be home most of the time). I’ll miss him though but it’s also good for him and his career. I’ll do my best to help him whenever I can.

My personal meaning of yoga is a combination of an ever-evolving mental, spiritual and physical exercise. A lot of self-awareness and self-control is involved whenever I practice as there are a lot of distractions and wandering thoughts. When my practice deepens, everything else becomes silent except for my breath. A level of maturity has also been obtained as it suppresses or diminishes the ego. These benefits weave into the reality off the mat, i.e., dealing with our everyday lives, our relationships, work, etc. Yoga helps me cope with challenges and lets me look at life in a different way. It also changed the way I eat!