djtatumsgirl27

Its getting harder. Once I realized how bad my OCD was getting… Its gotten worse. I’m not going to let it rule over my life!! :)

God listens to your prayers. I am realizing this. All you have to do is summon up the courage to talk to him. God is not partial. It took me a long time to talk to him, but I know that he listened to me. You can always talk to God.

-Djtatumsgirl27

Its gotten to the point where everything has to be perfectly in place. I have to touch something over and over again. Ect. But I’ve got to learn to take control. I’m not going to let OCD rule my life!!!!

My job… I work with the elderly. You HAVE TO be patient with them… Its required. Its helped me realize that when everyone is on the go go go, these older people who have nothing to live for, are being passed by. Some have no family or friends. Just waiting for their next meal to arrive so they can go to bed. I’m learning how to slow down. For them.

My family is falling apart. We’re all drifting away and not speaking to each other. The only thing still really holding us together are my grandparents. I’m so ashamed to call my cousins and aunt’s and uncle’s family… Its humiliating. And ever since my brother’s divorce… Things have only gotten worse… But I’m not letting it stop me. I have to get closer. They’re the only family I’ve got.

I just want to forget it all! Everything! How so many people have hurt me! Abusive boyfriends… the cutting…the drugs…the screaming and fighting… I want it all go away! I am so much happier with my life now… But my past wont leave me alone…

I have this awful tendency to buy things online. Its so hard when I actually CAN buy stuff with my card. I keep putting money from my savings into my checking… And I want to save for the future!! I just dont feel its worth it. :(

Okay. So right now I have been volunteering at an old folks home and I love it. But I’m not getting paid. I am tired of doing a ton of work and not getting any money. :\ I’m gonna start looking for a new PAYING job…

I’m starting to realize that not everyone can be a freaking Van Gogh. (Or however you spell it) I’ve been trying to start out small. Just do random sketches and maybe trace a few things. Its gotten easier. :)

Well… I’ve been dating this guy since December of 07’. The best time of my life. I love him so very much. I guess I feel like I’m pushing him aside right now. And that’s the last time I want to do. Any advice????

I have been playing guitar for 5 1/2 years. I want to pick it up again I just as so overwhelmed by my job, my school, my family… UGH!!

Ugh. So… I’m taking driver’s ed right now to get my permit, but I am so overwhelmed by everything else I have to do! And my parents rarely ever take me out to drive. Ugh! I need my permit so I can get a job that I want….

I’m only 15, but my parents and I have decided to do homeschool. I’m trying so hard to do my Junior AND Senior year in 6 months. I cant motivate myself to get up in the morning. And when I do get up, I end up doing nothing all day. Ugh. And me dad is no help to me at all. He’s very pushy. :\ And he makes me feel like a failure. I’, just trying sooo hard to get this done…