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couldn’t seem to find the ” get in shape ” goal in my list here. anyway, I have lost 35 – 36 lbs already when I weighed last month which is good. I haven’t weighed lately though but I’m sure I’m sure I’m still losing weight w/ my exercise and diet. People tell me, I don’t have to lose more weight because I do not look fat. But I know, I still have fats in my belly and back and arms. I do not have six packs because I have abdominal fats. and this, people can not understand. they’d think I would look to skinny and unhealthy. But I am doing this, losing more weight , for my own health. Not because I do not look fat for them, I have to stop losing weight.That shouldn’t be anyone’s basis. According to the chart, I am still overweight. I want to achieve my ideal bodyweight and not other people’s judgement of what’s ideal for me.

It feels good to be able to wear clothes better. It feels good to look presentable. It feels lighter and healthier.

Last night I saw an old friend’s transformation after losing weight. She looks so happy and healthy. I’m sure her family is as happy as her. I am happy for her too. She inspired me to lose more weight.

Times, like this, i think of my past. It affords me to revisit people and places. Sometimes i remember the feelings i had at a particular event, place , even person. And of course, the sad question “what if” makes things more complicated.. And i start to think of what-could-have-beens. A story leads to another then to another. The cycle never sleeps and it keeps my mind active at the small hours. Hence, i couldnot sleep.

But today is different. I took a sleeping pill. Haha

Good night insomniacs!

Times, like this, i think of my past. It affords me to revisit people and places. Sometimes i remember the feelings i had at a particular event, place , even person. And of course, the sad question “what if” makes things more complicated.. And i start to think of what-could-have-beens. A story leads to another then to another. The cycle never sleeps and it keeps my mind active at the small hours. Hence, i couldnot sleep.

But today is different. I took a sleeping pill. Haha

Good night insomniacs!