doeAdeer

i’ve been in a three year relationship. i’m still in a three year relationship. before that was a 2 year relationship. before that, i was too young to date. i need to experience something different in my life…but i don’t want to let my boyfriend go. he’s the best thing i have in my life, but i don’t want to keep thinking that i’m not experiencing things. i also keep thinking about girls. i want to try it out sooo bad, but i’m deathly scared. i want to marry my current boyfriend…but then again, i want to break up with him…maybe he’ll agree to let me try a few things in confidence and i won’t be such a basketcase anymore.

i want to stop mooching off my parents. i want to move out…again. i want to stop failing at these things. but the fact is, i like my mom’s cooking, i like when my dad makes coffee, i like it when they give me gas money and i like not paying rent. it doesn’t seem as though i’m going to be accomplishing this goal anytime soon.

i’d like to fall asleep without the use of drugs, thank you. i just don’t think it’s possible anymore.