Its a friday night just like nearly EVERY other 52 weeks of the year and I am on my own. Totally. Nobody to talk to nobody to turn to. Tough luck. Thats just the way my life has turned out. I think I am a good person and have put myself out for others. Still the universe has yet to return this energy to me. There’s not much I can do about it but get on with things. Do I really just step out alone? If I want to go somewhere just go alone? Perhaps I should. Maybe I could make a list of a number of places I would like to go and just turn up. It might make me feel better about myself and appreciate myself more. Why discriminate against who I am just because there’s me and thats all there is? I am all I’ve got. How dare I wait on others who don’t want to be around me to up and decide that they want my company. Forget them. They are not worth my time. thoughts or effort. I am my best asset. I can’t forget that.
People are disappointments so it’s best I rely on MYself. That’s what life has taught me. I cant wait to leave ‘home’ so that I can live my life as I mean to go on. Get a cat or two and then just get on with my life without those who treat me like garbage and never appreciate my being around. Take me for granted in persuit of their own dreams of smoke and mirrors. I just pray to God that I can achieve my ultimate goals next year. The Lord knows I need that.
