dubvsunshine

I drink too much, I smoke too much, I do too many drugs. I had surgery this morning for even more biopsies because my doctor thinks I have a cancer, I have uncontrolled Type I diabetes. I dont want to give myself a pity party about some health problems I’m having, because I’m doing too much damage on my own right now to think there was any way possible I wouldn’t be having any other problems. I just don’t know what to do about it.

ive made it into the 140s. Boys are paying attentino to me even when they aren’t wasted, and im starting to feel pretty. :) :) I can’t wait to weigh 130 lbs and dance around and not even think about the fat on my stomach bouncing around with me.

wow..i said i would do this..in the past 3 weeks i have spent over $350 on alcohol (pretty much just at the bar). Last week I went out Monday thru Saturday, and to top it off sat. I remember not one thing that happened. NOT ONE. i dont even remember making it to the bar and then i found the receipt from the tab i opened. awesome…