duncare

On my list:
HIndi
Chinese
Japanese
Russian

Joined college last year.Previously I was in all boys school through out my life, never interacted with girls(I know its hard to believe but its true!). Always school and back home, neva went to tuition so no opportunity to meet with girls at all.And life was good, being blissfully aware until…

College.Never felt what was infatuation, being shielded from the pain of love through out my life.Now I know why its called crush.

I saw this girl, ok she’s not hot but she is extremely cute.She’s short being around 4’11 always laughing and smiling, having ton’s of friends.Me being a quite reserved person never really liked her at the begining. But it all started when I came back from my scholarship interview.She was so impressed by my academic transcripts that she started complimenting me, joking with me and all.Me being totally new at this did could not make out what was going on.Does she like me or just friends kinda thing?

Slowly I started falling for her.Before I know it I would sit at the back of my class and stare at the back of her head.I used to draw sketches of her sitting at the back of my class while teacher was lecturing.It was really intense.I was mostly tongue-tied when she was around, and acted like I didn’t show any interest though I just wished I could speak to her.I felt she was perfect.Kept thinkng about her night and day,started writing poetry based on her and so on..

Then trials come and I did very badly in my exams, couldn’t quite concentrate in class and also I had other family issues going on..

When she heard of my results, her attitude toward me TOTALLY changed! The compliments stopped, the greetings stopped, my smiles were unreturned and she started avoiding me.She felt I was to stupid for her.Unfortunately I couldn’t tear myself from liking her.I know that her reason for even speaking to me is so superficial and I don’t want anything to do with a girl who would drop me like a hot brick is I didn’t match up to her standard.
But stupidly, I’m still into her.And it pains me..

I want to get through college with good grades and have a bright future and don’[t want to be sabotaged by this girl..I have to concentrate on myself.Crush is such a waste of time..
Easier said then done.I shall post more frequently to tell how I hold up.

I have a too lackadaisical attitude towards life.Which results in passing off opportunities due to my lazy don’t care attitude.