dundas_queen on 43 Things

dundas_queen's Life List

1. believe in God
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get another illustration contract... and another illustration contract... and another... etc
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3. find an art-related job
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4. love more, fear less
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5. never lose my sense of wonder
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6. believe in myself
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7. become great at drawing
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8. go out more
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9. carpe diem
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10. learn more about my culture
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11. laugh at my demons
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12. Confront my Childhood Trauma
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13. do a good deed everyday
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14. start a fun hobby
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15. list three things every day that made me happy
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16. start a bar fight and win
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17. praise myself on...
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Recent entries

Confront my Childhood Trauma (read all 4 entries…)

A step 4 months ago

I got a written apology for the first time ever from “the abuser” today out of blue from a networking website. Is it going to change anything at all? She remembers me (surprise!) and she seems to have had guilty feelings about me.

Right now it all seems to be an endless twisting pathway and since there are no feelings maybe there is no point.

I mean they tell you to deal with traumas with forgive and forget (I just seem to have the forget part) But she’s a grown woman I don’t recognize and I don’t remember. I just don’t remember. I don’t want her in my life but… huh, I should probably keep talking to her and maybe she’s going to give me a clue somehow. What should I tell her? It’s my chance of a lifetime.

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list three things every day that made me happy (read all 32 entries…)

Jan 2, 2008 6 months ago

1. My new band and having a concert soon. I’m going to be a rock star even if only for a couple of nights!
2. Dostoievsky’s “Brothers Karamazov” – interesting plot and so many great and religious ideas, even good humor
3. Bike ride to work, even though without any breakfast

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praise myself on...

Since I'm probably worrying more than basking in self-glory, I'm going to make up for it here! 6 months ago

... reading Dostoievsky “Brothers Karamazov” and Gogol’s short stories

... joining a cool band and practicing playing piano

... building friendly relationships with coworkers

... polishing my conversational English

... impressing myself with how far I’ve come

... riding my bike each time, even in snow

... going to church on Sunday by myself

... having an awesome well-designed apartment

... not having money trouble