dweiaskitten

this year for me is a travel year. I’m studying abroad in London, and then taking two weeks at the end of the semester to go around Europe, and then over the summer i’m going to be in India for 5 weeks!! So i’m very slowly working my way around the globe.

I’m gonna do it!!!!! i’m doins a semester abroad in London, and durring my spring break, i fully intend on going to as many places in the UK as humanly possible. dances

I had gone 3 months with out cutting, thinking about it, but not doing it. and then i got a boyfriend and i didn’t even think about it until i had to tell him. he was the first one who i’ve told (and i’ve only told like 11 people, not including my parents) who didn’t ask why. He just kissed the scars and then kissed my lips and said that he couldn’t understand, but that he was glad that i hadn’t done it in a long time. and then we were put on a break, and as a girl this was one of those times where i should have cried my eyes out. but i couldn’t, i just went numb. so i reopened three of the scars. i have like 11 in total, but i just reopen them when i cut. it really sucks knowing that i’ve dissapointed people by doing it again. but… it hurt too much not to… i dont’ want to hurt like this anymore… life sucks…