I went to this really cool resort and had views of the mountains, with a sit down with a few finger foods. I think that this is your special day and you should have what you want and what makes you happy. Trust me you will barely notice the food. You will only notice that you are perfect and are marrying the perfect person.
Well lately I have been sleeping much better. With the miracle pill seroquel!
I finally got the hell out of AL. Don’t get me wrong it is an okay place to live. just not for me. I did however get four very special things there. My sister-in-law, my son, my niece and my finance. And for that I will always cherish my time there. But I do not wish to live there ever again.
I am going crazy trying to plan my wedding!!!!!!! My future in-laws are making it so difficult for me I almost want to call off the whole wedding!! I hate them more than I can ever express!!!!!! I do not know what the hell to do. I am about ready to pull my hair out of my head and then shove it down the bitches throat! What should I do?????
I have contacted two of my friends that I was longing to talk with. Now all I have to do is find the time to stay in contact with them. :)
Most of my family is bi-polar either diagnosed or not, as I am. Psychofrenia also runs strongly in my family. I only wish that we could find a way to get everyone the help that they need or would like, not really need. If only we could find the root it would help!
I am not sure if I really know who I am, or if I am just a collection of what people want me to be. Some days I believe that I know who I am, and then days like today come about and I do not know if I am really me or if I am just who others want me to be. A friend here, a lover there, someone to complain to for another. The only one person I know that I am my true self with is my son and that is because he is the truest part of me.
I tried to do this but people just tend to annoy the hell out of me before I have a chance to like them. It could be me, but I don’t think so.
We have sold the house now all we have to do is find a house in Colorado and move there.
Well I have done it!!! WOOO HOOO!!!! I am three weeks out and I have lost twenty pounds I am so happy. I only had one complicantion and that was not even from the surgery, it was an underlying condition and it is all taken care of and I have not been as happy as I am now in the last ten years. I love where I am where I am going and everyone around me. HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!
I have come to understand that life is just that and you have to make the best out of what it gives you. I also realized that I have people who love me for me and not for what I look like or how I act, but just for myself.
Tomorrow is the big day and I am a mixture of happy, anxious and just plain scared.
