eBear

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I'm doing 38 things
 

eBear's Life List

  1. 1. create the life I want to live
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    45 people
  2. 2. figure out what is important
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    1 person
  3. 3. take better care of myself
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    1,145 people
  4. 4. start LIVING
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    43 people
  5. 5. list 43 things i like about myself
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    122 people
  6. 6. stop relying on others to complete me
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    11 people
  7. 7. stop rushing and enjoy the process
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    2 people
  8. 8. be more assertive
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    563 people
  9. 9. Make happiness a priority
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    18 people
  10. 10. stop taking things so personally
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    71 people
  11. 11. Learn to trust men
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    25 people
  12. 12. Keep losing weight till I reach my goal weight
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    127 people
  13. 13. Stop Putting Things Off
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    72 people
  14. 14. learn yoga
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    1,984 people
  15. 15. learn how to drive stick-shift
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    4,180 people
  16. 16. Give blood
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    2,476 people
  17. 17. get a better job
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    1,103 people
  18. 18. be a better friend
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    5,060 people
  19. 19. learn reiki
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    141 people
  20. 20. become more organized
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    716 people
  21. 21. Prove them wrong
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    129 people
  22. 22. spend less time on the internet
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    858 people
  23. 23. go to bed at a decent hour
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    95 people
  24. 24. record my old LP records onto CD
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    3 people
  25. 25. fit into my 43 things t-shirt
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    1 person
  26. 26. learn several languages
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    14 people
  27. 27. Learn to DJ
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    465 people
  28. 28. post randomly
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    96 people
  29. 29. Give the needy food and other items they would actually like.
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    74 people
  30. 30. list 43 memories of my Opa
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    1 person
  31. 31. go back to school
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    1,995 people
  32. 32. share "the secret"
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    1 person
  33. 33. get a tattoo
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    17,183 people
  34. 34. see The Dan Band live!!
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    2 people
  35. 35. figure out how to be in a relationship.
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    1 person
  36. 36. make my bed every day
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    161 people
  37. 37. remember the things that make me smile, and list them here so i won't forget
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    1 person
  38. 38. get my British passport
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    3 people
Recent entries
get my British passport
I'm glad I'm not alone 19 hours ago

in just thinking about this goal. ‘Cuz that’s where I’m at. I still think I shouldn’t have been so stupid at age 12 when I was getting my first one: I had the option to choose Canadian or British, and I chose Canadian. That was dumb. Now its gonna cost me close to $1K when I finally do get around to getting it.

At least the rules have changed back to what they were, so that I can actually have one again; for a long time I was kicking myself because children of ex-pats could only get a step up from a visa. Now I can have a passport and wave it fanatically over the heads of others. Or something.

It’s not so much for me, it’s more things like down the road when I have children who are planning to go to school – what if one of them wants to go to the UK? Or what if immigration rules change again? My children will have a dead albatross of a last name hanging around their necks; the least I can do is give them a leg up from their European ancestry.


figure out how to be in a relationship. (read all 6 entries…)
just venting 19 hours ago

I’m frustrated that you said, “We’ll talk later” but later has now come and gone…. just like the “We’ll get together and pick a date” or “We’ll have a heart-to-heart this weekend” all these ‘laters’ came and went. Yes, I am equally to blame for not bringing them up. I’m just tired of this crap between us.

And since we aren’t allowed to fight in the past, but it still bugs me I’ll say it here where you won’t see it: I’m still pissed off that you told me you were going to propose to me two years ago, and never did, and I’m scared that the same thing is happening now, even though you promised you would ask me this time.

I’m frustrated that you don’t understand how important quality time is to me. I went on holiday with my friends out of spite. I know I explained that to you already, but you don’t seem to really understand it. When I asked you what you wanted to do for a summer vacation, and you told me you weren’t going to take any time off, then ended up complaining about how you couldn’t get any time off except for every Friday, it really hurt my feelings. And I can’t even describe it well enough here. I dont’ know how to put it into words you’ll understand. And I think that’s the entire problem. I need quality time, and you don’t understand that because I can’t figure out how to express it.

Just like how I invited you to Montreal; I took that job because I figured it would be a good way for us to have a mini vacation for cheap. I know you don’t like Opera, but it’s free. Do you really think I love cars as much as you and that I was as excited as you were when I took you to the auto show last year? Really? Are you that blind? I have an interest in cars; I try to be more interested because you love them so much.

I hate not being able to talk to you. I also hate chasing you down to try to talk to you. I feel like a nag, but I don’t know how else to get you to communicate with me. I refuse to “talk” to you about this crap through email, because that never goes well. Messenger and text messages are no good, either. So that leaves over the phone or in person, and I’m not a big fan of baring my soul over the phone. So last option: in person. But wait! That’s not going to happen either because if I’m not at work, then you’re with your family or friends or _.

Sometimes I hate relationships. This is bullshit.


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anxious 6 days ago

I can’t wait for this effing new moon/solar eclipse to get itself sorted out. Because all the shit it’s stirring up is NASTY. Not just in my life, either.

As my friend Napoleon Dynamite would say, “GOSH!!”


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