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Went to my son’s choir concert and noticed a name in the program of another student. Seeing the name got me to calling Paulette, an old high school friend, to find out if the student was her niece and she was! Too bad I didn’t see Paulette’s sister at the concert; so many years has passed and there was quite a crowd. At any rate, I did enjoy my phone conversation with Paulette.

Brian and I have been talking to each other as well after 32 years. We were high school sweethearts then. Weve been chatting nearly every day for about two weeks now. It’s been nice to reconnect with him and hear about how his life has turned out and who he has become. I should have held on to him when I was in high school :)

I’ve done terribly. But now I am doing pretty well, cause the doc put me on an antidepressant and I SO want to get better. I’ve been on them a month and have done very well in taking them every morning – woo hoo! Every day AND at the same time every day too!

I even had a terrible cold and took the cold medicine regularly – one every day and another every 6 hours. Not bad…

Jeepers, it’s been a year and the entries I wrote then are still true. How sad of me. I didn’t go to work Friday or today, spent 4 entire days in my pj’s watching movies, surfing the internet, playing poker and solitaire online. Basically nothing at all. I cry watching other people having a good time and I’m all alone without anyone. I haven’t shopped for Christmas gifts yet and all my decorations are still in the attic.

Since last year I have been to a counselor and a psychiatrist. I’m obviously not better than I was a year ago, but I am better than I was 6 months ago. I won’t say more.

I need to learn how to be happy alone.