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Yesterday I went to the gym but was extremely close to not going. I emailed two of my friends to see if they were going and only one replied that he was but much earlier than I could make it. Apparently, my other friend replied to the other guy and I never got the email that he was interested in going with me. So, I had some extra time at work and I decided to go for a half an hour walk since it wasn’t busy. I was satisfied with the walk and began to convince myself that it was enough and that I didn’t need to go to the gym.

My coworker who convinced me to go for the walk said that it would be more likely that I would want to go to the gym after walking. Well although I didn’t believe her, I ended up going to the gym. My other friend called me and although I wasn’t going to go I had a little motivation spark inside me knowing that I wouldn’t be going to the gym alone.

So the point of this entry is I’m happy I went to the gym. Additionally, I would like work on breaking my codependence on people to go to the gym with me.

It seems that I’ve hit rock bottom last weekend at my all time highest weight in my life. This week I’ve gone to the grocery store and bought healthy foods and I’ve been doing good so far. I even went to the gym yesterday. I’m really hoping that I don’t skrew things up as I really need to lose at least 50lbs. I will be happy to get to 25lbs down but I know I’m setting a path to go in the right direction.

I feel like my gym membership is my own charity organization as I’m paying every month but haven’t gone in about two months. Since last Sunday I’ve started eating better and now finally I went to the gym for 30 min of weight lifting and 30 min of cardio. I know I could have done more but I didn’t want to over do my first day back.

Today I’m sore in my triceps but its a ‘good’ ache as it reminds me that I did go to the gym and it makes me feel like I’m getting back on track.

I’m wondering if I will go again today…