I'm doing 21 things
I just want to hug it. =]
9 months ago
Probably can’t go that close to it, but, eh.
It’s the oldest living organism on planet earth. =)
Neat.
edvy's Life List
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1. accept myself as I am
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2. learn to knit scarves
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3. read les miserables
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4. Visit every "Valencia" location in the world
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5. be a "yes man"
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6. say yes more
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7. Paint it Black
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8. See General Sherman Tree
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9. Have a book shelf
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10. go to france
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11. Beat my depression
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12. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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13. adopt a child
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14. acquire French nationality
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15. Speak French fluently
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16. Discover one good thing about each day
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17. eat healthier
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18. Learn to play the guitar
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19. Become a professional photographer
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20. Give blood
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21. Argue less
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How I did it
It made me 
How I did it: But a beautiful feeling nonetheless. Unless it's ugly rain, y'know, windy and all. Only one of the couple of times I've done it in has been under calm, freefalling rain.But my favorite was while listening to a special song on my ipod (yes, while raining, but it was safe in my pocket, and the earphones covered with my curly hair :D). He'd put a flower in my hair so that felt cute, too. =]The song was Pink Moon, by Nick Drake, fyi. (No… Read how I did it…
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And then maybe Valencia, Spain! :D
Valencia is my last name, and I’m rather proud of it. So much so that I am not/wouldn’t change it in marriage.
Every heart vibrates to that iron string.
10 months ago
Whether it’s what you see in the mirror that you don’t like, or your personality you can’t stand… you won’t be able to live with yourself if you put your inner demons in the backburner, because they won’t let you go, EVER, if you don’t shoot them down as soon as possible.
You can be told a million and one times that “nobody’s perfect” or that you’re “unique in your own way”, but it WILL NOT change your thinking. Someone can dedicate all of their time to try and help you and it will go to waste. Eventually, you’ll just come to realize it, when YOUR specific time comes, why you are the way you are and when that time does come, the rest won’t matter. When you can look at yourself in shallow water and see past the conformist issues everyone worries about, you’ll see yourself. You might even see how much better you are than them.
May it be a physical or emotional discomfort that you have with yourself, mine being mostly physical, you need to realize that it does NOT matter.
Even as I write it, it may sound as if I see myself perfect and I’ve done all this and found myself, but no. I can hear, I can write, I can say it all want, but I’m not there yet.
Lately however, I’ve been taking tiny, tiny, ant-like steps to getting there. And somehow I think that when one of the things I want to desperately do in life, adopt a child, I’ll make a huge, tremendous leap to finding a meaning in life and either accepting myself almost completely or just… not giving a damn about it. Because it won’t be about me anymore.
So I can’t wait for that day. =]
