good week. a lapse on thursday night to friday was quickly made up for! no i am back on track. not too much calorie restriction tho bc of a cold. 1,500 today is good. even 2,000 today is ok, bc i want to get over this cold fast
Got a salad today at starbucks instead of the muffin or cookie that called out to me
Lost some weight last week but seemed to have gained it back a bit yesterday in 6 desserts ranging from cookies to popsicles, plus dinner out, about 1,000 calories.
Have been going to the gym and also more active in walking around lately.
have been stocking the fridge with vegetables, which is great
plan is to start writing it down again, and keep it under 1,300.
today:
flax 200
carrot 100
apple 50
rice 150
soybeans 200
milk w coffee 50
papaya 150
1000 calories or so today. makes up somewhat for yesterday. must eat breakfast regularly! and start writing it down again. i did not like the belly in the mirror at the gym.
so busy lately, haven’t had time to even write down what i’ve been eating. but i have been eating less than in august. tonight i am going to catch up on studying and go to sleep really early.
Just too busy to do everything! I weighed in at 63 kg on Friday. That’s 139 pounds. So I’ve lost a few… Then I relaxed my diet over the weekend bc I went out to a party and a restaurant. Will get back into it this week. Joined a gym on Friday! So I’ll be going three times a week from now on.
Monday, weighed 63.5 kg.
100 pomegranate
25 carrot
200 two shortbread cookies
250 omelet
200 greasy vegetables for lunch
100 chicken leg for lunch
75 candy that was lying around
950 so far and still fine. now a major project to finish in the next 7 hours. can i do it? It will take focus. i’ve been procrastinating for three nights in a row, even though i really love the project. i’m just always scared of taking the plunge and actually DOING it.
outline by 6 p.m., 600 words by 7 p.m. calls by 8 p.m. 1,200 words by 9 p.m., send to a friend for comments, then breath for a half hour and go on walk, then second draft by 11 p.m. send by 12 midnight. that’s very soon.
i did a major grocery shopping for eggs, tomatoes, cukes, onions, peppers, my omelet routine has begun again. plus pomegranates.
today i didn’ thave this on hand at noon so i ate some cookies and then got terribly insanely hypoglyecemic and i was cursing bc i couldn’t find the knife to cut open the pomegranate. then i ate ice cream… but i got right back on track later. for 1,500 calories. whoohoo.
it feels really good to be in control of my food again. it really depends on having hte ability to cook for myself and to not be going out for meals.
Got back home after a lot of traveling, and a lot of exposure to junk food and hassle getting healthy food, and I immediately stopped binging and am losing the weight… a week ago i was 142 pounds, but on friday i was 63 kg, which is 139 pounds. I plan to get back to 132 pounds within two months. more exercise, more veggies, protein, and water…
Weight: 141 pounds. Have gained very rapidly due to a lack of exercise. Goal weight is 125 pounds. Never really stayed there though. Should lose about two pounds a week and get back to 135 by the time I see my bf again.
Feel sick all the time from what I’m eating.
Read a story in the Economist about water: the elixir of weight loss. Drinking lots of water really does help!
Cannot wait to get back home and restart my weight loss plan. On Thursday I will go join a new gym. Really looking forward to it.
I REALLY WANT TO BE EATING HEALTHY AGAIN. It just feels so much better. Need to get back in control.
I can’t believe I gained so fast: 6 pounds in 6 weeks I guess. I can lose it in three weeks though. 1,200 calories a day. track everything. motivations: to feel better, fit into my clothes, preserve my health, not get diabetic.
I feel so much happier when I take the time to exercise and the breath to take care of myself rather than just eating everything.
looks like it didn’t record my note yesterday, unfortunately.
i have been packing on the pounds really fast due to this cafeteria-style buffet with unlimited delicious options 24 hours a day. it was delicious, but now my clothes are too tight. My jeans and my shirts…. and I feel embarrassed about my stomach. So I am going to resume checking in every day.
This morning I ate a
waffle 150 calories
milk with creamer 20 calories
bacon 200 calories
eggs 100 calories
about 500 calories
ok. giving self credit for leaving the cafeteria after that!
credit for gym last night too. and for logging in here.
100 two apples
50 two carrots
150 sardines
200 one omelet, two eggs, two tomatoes,
50 nuts
50 cheese
rounding the corner. dropped a few tasks from my list that seemed impossible, and probably were. it is going to take at least a week to get back to normal in terms of my body, but i already feel relieved and have stopped binging as of this morning (last night was terrible). tonight i will take a sleeping pill and start over tomorrow. I also need more exercise, so I’m getting it.
did a little better yesterday, except for rice and ice cream
today:
ice cream 100
nuts 300
rice 100
fish 150
carrot 100
credit: throwing away the ice cream
credit: writing this stuff down here.
credit: vegetables last night
credit: eating fewer nuts and raisins
credit; drinking more liquids
feeling really fat though. like huge belly came really fast.
new plan: no nuts or raisins or carbs for this week. REALLY. just veggies and protein. and water.
plan: remember how fast i will get back into shape once i start.
Ok, need to keep logging in here every day. have gained two pounds this week (all in the belly) from overeating, mainly nuts and dried fruit. stress! need to solve my problems rather than eating.
probably ate 1,000 calories of cereal at high speed. OKAY I NEED TO DEAL WITH STRESS PRODUCTIVELY. drink water, calm down, set up social engagements with friends. all very important things.
Okay just called about three people, after spending all day at my computer in this new city. Also got no sunlight, so that is not good. Anyway, none of those people were free tonight. Going to trot on the very noise treadmill, pass the bowl of almonds and the cabinet of cereal on the way there. Wish me luck with that.
these past three days have been really bad. Sunday, monday, and Tuesday I ate constantly, in a misplaced effort to ground myself, since my life is sort of haywire right now. but feeling out of control with food is even more disorienting than whatever anxiety brought me to overeat in the first place. I have just finished several things that I was procrastinating, such as emailed that had piled up for weeks. And now I am going to go over the principles of my bible, the Beck Solution. The book starts with fighting back against the self-sabotaging thoughts that lead to overeating and the advantages to weight loss. The self-sabotaging thought, in my case, is most often the thought that it is inevitable that I will eat THAT. When I’ve been on a diet for a while, I have more confidence in myself, but when I go off track, I feel completely helpless. Right now, having gained about a pound in the past three days, I feel rather helpless, so I need to secure my environment, to help myself build up the muscle of confidence and willpower. Advantages to losing weight, getting it under control again: in the short term: feeling healthy, energetic, calm, sleeping better. in the long term: fitting into my smaller jeans, feeling more confident, sexy. in the even longer term: living longer, aging slower, not needing blood sugar regulators or anything related to insulin and diabetes.
PLAN
drink more water and coffee.
deal with blood pressure every day.
keep on writing it down. this habit had slipped bc i got busy
check in here once a day for at least a week
cut down on carbs…
give self credit for every time i don’t eat the almonds!
Saturday: 2,350 calories, estimated
Sunday: 3,000 calories, estimated, plus gym
Monday: 2,100 calories or so
Tuesday: 2,000 calories so far
Wednesday: aim for 1,300 calories to kick off the new plan, and I will feel so much better.
I only ate about 1,400 calories today. Missed the gym, but I have to give myself credit for not eating ice cream or any junk. Really proud of myself for that. It made all the difference in the world to just have carrots and healthy food around to munch on while working. Probably would have helped my work to go to the gym, instead of trying to force myself to work all day. I’m looking forward to getting to the gym tomorrow and over the next two weeks, getting in shape and losing this huge belly that makes me feel like a total stress case because eating is what I do instead of dealing with work productively and solving stressful situations.
Today I went shopping for vegetables and fruits and eggs for the first time in weeks!
Also went to the gym to kick off two weeks off intense gyming
Weighed in at 63 kg. Haven’t gained as much as I feel. I thought I was at 64 plus. Still, ALL my jeans are too small, so that says more than the weight on the scale; really out of shape.
Kicked off my omelet (six egg whites, one yolk) for breakfast, cucumbers and carrots for snacks routine. (For weeks it has been anything or no breakfast or no breakfast plus ice cream and cookies and cake and whatever I see for snacks.
Bought two new albums to listen to at the gym
Treated self to two iced coffees with splenda as a reward. Intend to make this a habit to replace the high-speed self-punishing ingestion of any ice cream and cookies and cake that comes into my field of vision.
Read Beck Diet Solution, a six-week program that focuses on psychology
Read my “Advantages to Losing Weight” card
Goal is to lose four pounds in two weeks, but to also build serious muscle. I gained the last two pounds pretty fast, can lose those fast. Getting back to my shape last fall, fitting into THOSE jeans, will take a few more months, though.
Goals:
Eating 1,200 calories per day, burning 1,800 calories per week at gym
Monday July 12: 137.
Monday July 19: 135.
Monday July 26: 133 and fit into the only semi-stylish pair of jeans without holes that I own.
This sounds like a breakneck pace of weight loss. But I intend to not go hungry, which pretty much means going no-carb, low-fat, high vegetable, high protein.
i have a really good plan written out.
my motivation is back.
yesterday was a good start.
today was even better.
I’ve gained so much weight, really let myself go, from stress in this past week. My “fat jeans” are now getting too tight. Christ. I think it’s that I really need to work out regularly, like 3 times a week. I haven’t been in that routine at all. Also, I’ve been really eating tons of sweets while working on a big project. It’s pretty bad. Today I did fine though. Must get back on track.
So, my plan is to go to the gym every other this week and next week, and go vegetable shopping, and eat just 1,200 calories a day. I should be able to lose about four pounds… I should drink some fancy coffee drinks and all. I’m going to start at the beginning of the Beck book again.
