i have never been in love,because i want you to be my first, i want to feel so innocent in love w\ you. i will do anything to make you feel perfect everyday… because you are. to me. i want to do things i have never done before, only for you. i hope you will get my lame jokes, your laugh would make my day and i hope my jokes would make yours too. idk how to do and say sweet things,but i will try my hardest,even if i get too cheesy, i hope you would be cool with it. idk how to cook, but i will learn for you. (: rite now, i am preparing to be a better person, so i’m ready when you’re finally here. idk know what you’re doing now, but i hope your doing good. even if your with someone else. if there’s a day you will feel alone, just remember i’m dying to see you. we’ll see each other soon!
...lt. col. elizaveta mukasei was a Russian Soviet-era spy codenamed Elza who had taken part in a number of undercover operations in Western Europe and the United States from the 1940s through to the 1970s.
...Ms. Mukasei spent most of her working life as “nelegal,” a Russian term for spies who worked undercover in the West during the cold war and sent intelligence back to Moscow.
...In 1937, after graduating from the Oriental Faculty of Leningrad University, he was ordered to the intelligence school and in 1939, already having two children, the couple was sent to fulfill their first mission, in Los Angeles.
.be charming towards my ladylike love life
.(just!) a bit far fetched fantasy.
.be positive. PO-si-tive! ! not Hep
.what’s the best part about this situation?- attitude
its hard for me to tell you how i feel, because no one in my previous relationships has wanted that. and if they have, ive been afraid to tell them because i was afraid of being hurt. wish i could pour out my feelings to you. please bare with me, im working on it. i will slowly be able to tell you how i feel or what im thinking. i read this quote today and its made me think: “The best way to love is to love like you have never been hurt.” that fits the situation one-hundred percent. i keep dwelling on the past and what everyone else has done to me.
but i know you care for me and want to be with me. i am sorry ive doubted that before. swear theres not been a moment in the last five days :) where i have doubted any feelings for you.
okay, i love you and if you have not seen that by now then you are blind. i used to think it was just pally or your looks but then i realized its the inside that makes my heart beat at this pace.
i know that things could never be the same again but thats what life is about…taking risks! i could make you so happy. theres more to life than just sitting around waiting for something to happen… life will then just pass us by.
i don know exactly what it is, it just hit me, but theres something really special about you.
oh,and i don’t want to hurt you like you have been hurt in the past.
and i just want me to take a risk and see how good it would feel.
you confuse the heck out of me! it’s not supposed to be this complicated…one likes the other n vice versa. it shouldn’t be that hard! i know you know. and i know you’re hung up on her…but i just wish you would stop messing around.
there! i said it! please tell me there’s something here
fuck off mr totalist superlatively perfection wannabe. fuck off with your sofa units and strine green stripe patterns, and please travel to the heck with your travel afterall. i say never be complete, i say stop being perfect, i say let… lets evolve, let the chips fall where they may
with the way life goes do not dare to change it pls.
.more kiss less distance