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at how much better I feel around M… and how much more relaxed he seems to be too. WOW!! I feel so much happier in general at work and I feel like it spills over to other staff too. How much more relaxed and comfortable and happy and OPEN will I be in a month’s time??

Also… I was watching this movie the other night and there was a love scene that actually totally turned me on. Movie love scenes are normally pathetic or gross or cheesey.. but this was amazing. I wonder if the two actors actually have a connection, because you could really see it. Anyways, it was just them French kissing and then the scene is interrupted… but them kissing was amazing. It made me yearn for that “rapport” myself. Not just kissing some dude.

I’ve been matching and mirroring him like crazy too—and not always consciously. It’s fun :) And I’m totally getting there. We are totally getting there :D

by July 25!!

I will do this by:
- being happy :)
- eating what I want: raw vegan!
- cardio
- weight training like mad!!

Thursday: the 2 guys on the patio, M, J (in the kitchen)
Friday: 2 bartenders, J (in the kitchen), P
Saturday: J (in the kitchen), S??, P