I'm doing 39 things
A few days after my senior prom last May, I started dating my prom date. He was a junior and one of my best friend’s brothers. It started out fine, and I was super happy. I got my first kiss from him (not the greatest experience…it was the day after we started dating, and it was at school. Very unromantic.), and about a month later I made out for the first time. May sound awkward, but I enjoyed making out. I’m not going to have sex until I’m married, so that was never an issue. However, about a month and a half in we were making out for like, ever. We didn’t have sex, we didn’t even come close to it (or any version of sex), but it was just inappropriate and I didn’t really realize it at the time. I was just too caught up in the moment. The next day we both went to camps for a week. A week later, he broke up with me, mostly because he “can’t see himself ever actually loving me.” Nice. Now, I got over him really quickly. Like, the next day (no joke). I was so happy that I wasn’t with him anymore, and I think that the reason I thought I liked him when we were dating was because he was my first real, “high school,” boyfriend. So that didn’t matter. But I started to really regret that one night a couple of weeks later. It’s really bothered me on and off throughout this year. I go through periods when the me then just disgusts me. I love me now, and at the time I loved me then, but looking back, I can’t stand who I was. Usually I’m okay with it. I mean, I know that God has forgiven me for letting it get slightly out of hand, and I thought I forgave myself, but I don’t think I completely have. Because I still don’t like who I was. I still gag when I think about the fact that I dated him. I regret it. I regret that night. I regret dating him period. I even partially regret prom, which was so much fun. And I can’t stand regret. It is not something that I like to feel. So I just need to get over what happened completely, and forgive myself.
emmalicious's Life List
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1. give something back
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2. be kissed in the rain.
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3. Watch all of the Dawson's Creek Episodes
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4. save myself for marriage
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5. have 4-6 kids
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6. get married!
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7. stop biting my nails
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8. meet Josh Groban
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9. be the best pediatric nurse EVER
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10. Michael Buble
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11. always live for Christ!
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12. lead someone to the Lord
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13. meet Oprah
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14. sing the ABC's backwards
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15. go to every Disney park
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16. go parasailing
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17. be bold
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18. take more risks
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19. meet Zac Hanson
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20. fall in love
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21. learn to play the piano
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22. have a house with a room dedicated to Elvis Presley
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23. Send a message in a bottle
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24. fly (like a superhero)
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25. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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26. Be granted the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and to have the wisdom to know the difference...
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27. save someone's life
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28. Send a postcard to Postsecret
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29. eat an entire bag of oreos...and not feel guilty!
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30. be in a movie
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31. read the entire Bible
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32. own a pair of pumps...and wear them!
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33. do a real cartwheel
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34. visit Seattle
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35. lose the weight!!
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36. dance in a thunderstorm
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37. read through the Harry Potter series every year
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38. travel the world
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39. apply to be on "The Real World"
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