emmalicious




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emmalicious's Life List

  1. 1. give something back
    20 people
  2. 2. be kissed in the rain.
    1 cheer
    842 people
  3. 3. Watch all of the Dawson's Creek Episodes
    1,309 people
  4. 4. fly (like a superhero)
    1 person
  5. 5. Send a message in a bottle
    4,127 people
  6. 6. have a house with a room dedicated to Elvis Presley
    1 person
  7. 7. learn to play the piano
    8,242 people
  8. 8. save myself for marriage
    63 people
  9. 9. meet Zac Hanson
    1 person
  10. 10. take more risks
    1,075 people
  11. 11. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
    21,233 people
  12. 12. Be granted the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and to have the wisdom to know the difference...
    500 people
  13. 13. save someone's life
    1,105 people
  14. 14. Send a postcard to Postsecret
    3,024 people
  15. 15. eat an entire bag of oreos...and not feel guilty!
    1 person
  16. 16. be in a movie
    1,671 people
  17. 17. own a pair of pumps...and wear them!
    1 person
  18. 18. do a real cartwheel
    2 people
  19. 19. visit Seattle
    255 people
  20. 20. be bold
    96 people
  21. 21. go parasailing
    820 people
  22. 22. go to every Disney park
    1 person
  23. 23. read the entire Bible
    2,599 people
  24. 24. fall in love
    27,010 people
  25. 25. have 4-6 kids
    2 people
  26. 26. get married!
    20,983 people
  27. 27. dance in a thunderstorm
    8 people
  28. 28. stop biting my nails
    7,333 people
  29. 29. meet Josh Groban
    60 people
  30. 30. be the best pediatric nurse EVER
    1 person
  31. 31. Michael Buble
    1 person
  32. 32. read through the Harry Potter series every year
    1 cheer
    1 person
  33. 33. travel the world
    1 cheer
    20,753 people
  34. 34. always live for Christ!
    1 person
  35. 35. lead someone to the Lord
    6 people
  36. 36. apply to be on "The Real World"
    1 person
  37. 37. meet Oprah
    272 people
  38. 38. sing the ABC's backwards
    3 people
  39. 39. lose the weight!!
    46 people
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forgive myself
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A few days after my senior prom last May, I started dating my prom date. He was a junior and one of my best friend’s brothers. It started out fine, and I was super happy. I got my first kiss from him (not the greatest experience…it was the day after we started dating, and it was at school. Very unromantic.), and about a month later I made out for the first time. May sound awkward, but I enjoyed making out. I’m not going to have sex until I’m married, so that was never an issue. However, about a month and a half in we were making out for like, ever. We didn’t have sex, we didn’t even come close to it (or any version of sex), but it was just inappropriate and I didn’t really realize it at the time. I was just too caught up in the moment. The next day we both went to camps for a week. A week later, he broke up with me, mostly because he “can’t see himself ever actually loving me.” Nice. Now, I got over him really quickly. Like, the next day (no joke). I was so happy that I wasn’t with him anymore, and I think that the reason I thought I liked him when we were dating was because he was my first real, “high school,” boyfriend. So that didn’t matter. But I started to really regret that one night a couple of weeks later. It’s really bothered me on and off throughout this year. I go through periods when the me then just disgusts me. I love me now, and at the time I loved me then, but looking back, I can’t stand who I was. Usually I’m okay with it. I mean, I know that God has forgiven me for letting it get slightly out of hand, and I thought I forgave myself, but I don’t think I completely have. Because I still don’t like who I was. I still gag when I think about the fact that I dated him. I regret it. I regret that night. I regret dating him period. I even partially regret prom, which was so much fun. And I can’t stand regret. It is not something that I like to feel. So I just need to get over what happened completely, and forgive myself.



Perform in a musical
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I was in several in High School. Even though they weren’t professional productions, it was such an amazing experience! I was a chorus member in “Once Upon a Mattress,” a small part in “Oklahoma!” and Mrs. Potts in “Beauty and the Beast.” So much fun!!




 

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