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no matter how many people say they do… i dont feel that anyone loves me. i try very hard to please everyone but no one is happy with me and all i ever get is put down. im a good person who has a lot of love to give…. all i want is to be loved.

im usually not very whiney or sad in open. i keep it inside but the more i thinka bout it the more i want who i am on the outside to be more of who i am on the inside. if i can pretend so well why not really make it happen. i have a lot of changing to do and this is a big one on my list. wish me luck.

i want to hate food. i want to hate the way it smells and the way it taste’s i want to be forced to eat because its been so long that people are worried about my health. i want to hate the way commercials make foor look. i want my favorite holiday to be something because its fun not because its a feast or it is focused on strangers giving me candy. i want to hold food in the lowest of positions i want to be disgusted when i think of it and i want my lip to curl in anger when someone (or my mind) brings it up… i want to hate food