energy

is sadest ever.



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energy's Life List

  1. 1. remember that I am free and alive
    66 cheers
    1 person
  2. 2. spend less time online
    10 entries . 37 cheers
    565 people
  3. 3. Look at the sky
    6 entries . 22 cheers
    7 people
  4. 4. stop drinking alone
    6 entries . 49 cheers
    6 people
  5. 5. get through this
    2 entries . 3 cheers
    7 people
  6. 6. picnic
    3 entries . 16 cheers
    11 people
  7. 7. figure out my life
    3 entries . 12 cheers
    66 people
  8. 8. ask for what I want
    22 entries . 67 cheers
    23 people
  9. 9. Think of all the things I would do if I won the lottery, and then look for ways to work towards them now, even without a multimillion dollar bank account
    4 entries . 43 cheers
    5 people
  10. 10. see fireflies
    1 entry . 80 cheers
    52 people
  11. 11. improve my blog
    5 entries . 2 cheers
    66 people
  12. 12. get out of this funk
    6 entries . 18 cheers
    18 people
  13. 13. be more frugal
    14 entries . 17 cheers
    130 people
  14. 14. reduce my bills
    11 entries . 19 cheers
    4 people
  15. 15. Identify and Rid Myself of 43 Items of Überclutter
    30 entries . 23 cheers
    23 people
  16. 16. be excellent at my job
    1 entry . 8 cheers
    3 people
  17. 17. Go to bed by 10:30 on weeknights
    14 entries . 74 cheers
    64 people
  18. 18. Develop an exercise routine that works with my new schedule
    1 entry . 13 cheers
    1 person
  19. 19. have better posture
    9 entries . 55 cheers
    7,729 people
  20. 20. Give up each of my vices for one week on a rotating schedule in effort to teach myself how to avoid them
    40 entries . 18 cheers
    2 people
  21. 21. read some books about feminism
    2 entries . 15 cheers
    1 person
  22. 22. train my cat
    11 entries . 4 cheers
    11 people
  23. 23. learn to meditate
    5 entries . 16 cheers
    1,620 people
  24. 24. learn about buddhism
    6 entries . 12 cheers
    395 people
  25. 25. learn to identify trees
    13 entries . 74 cheers
    20 people
  26. 26. construct a family emergency kit and put it where I'll find it when I need it
    4 entries . 74 cheers
    57 people
  27. 27. replace the kitchen floor
    5 entries . 7 cheers
    2 people
  28. 28. Read 50 books in 2009.
    10 entries . 13 cheers
    248 people
  29. 29. learn about beer
    23 entries . 34 cheers
    4 people
  30. 30. learn how to drive stick-shift
    3 entries . 12 cheers
    4,463 people
  31. 31. Volunteer often
    9 entries . 37 cheers
    4 people
  32. 32. Fund 43 microloans through Kiva.org
    9 entries . 7 cheers
    72 people
  33. 33. Bowl over 200
    12 entries . 9 cheers
    22 people
  34. 34. wake up when my alarm clock goes off
    19 entries . 44 cheers
    7,534 people
  35. 35. get my hearing checked
    1 entry . 10 cheers
    8 people
  36. 36. buy a new dishwasher
    3 entries . 3 cheers
    4 people
  37. 37. Do an energy audit on my home
    1 entry . 15 cheers
    1 person
  38. 38. move to Portland
    8 entries . 25 cheers
    264 people
  39. 39. Build a cat tree for my cat
    1 entry . 8 cheers
    61 people
  40. 40. Go skydiving
    1 entry . 5 cheers
    6,592 people
  41. 41. think more serously about writing that book
    9 cheers
    1 person
  42. 42. Climb Mt. Kilimanjaro
    1 entry . 4 cheers
    441 people

How I did it
How to do something special for my 30th birthday
It took me
1 day
It made me
emotional


How to hike at least 40 miles this August
It took me
1 month
It made me
a hike-a-thon'er


How to make jam
It took me
1 day
It made me
domestic


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Recent entries
list three things every day that made me happy (read all 61 entries…)
11/19/2009 22 hours ago

1. Listening to Zencast in the car I decided to re-open this goal. There was a brief discussion about how angry people look for things to be angry about, and find things! How true. I was angry at the time and decided to try the reverse. May noticing happy things help me rediscover happy. I’m excited to be doing this.

2. Playing with the puppy at my dad’s house.

3. My phone was on silent when I got a call that would have led to me being rude to someone. I have time now before I see the person to calm down and remind myself of the quirks of that person and to to be polite.



get my hearing checked
Untitled 1 day ago

Spending lots of time with the family lately and relizing how much hearing loss runs in my family. So many folks can’t seem to talk without screaming, realizing they can’t hear themselves! (And they’re loud voices (and TVs and radios and ringtones) are damaging the hearing of everyone else)



get through this (read all 2 entries…)
Getting through 1 day ago

Grandma died yesterday.

After weeks of struggling, she had been peacefully sleeping for 3 days and died within a half hour of showing signs of another struggle. One of her daughters and three grandchildren (including me) were at her side. Another group of family chose to wait in the living room. The hospice harpist happened to be there and made the moment seem almost planned.

Family gathered at her home in the hours that followed. We had a full house, nearly the same as a holiday, with all of grandma’s six kids and most of her kids by marriage and nearly all of her 14 grandchildren along with many spouses, a couple great-grand kids (many are too young for this sort of gathering). As we were all together quiet, mourning and I was trying to cook dinner for 35 people, the power went out. We were in the middle of a windstorm and somehow the candles and fireplace and quiet of a blackout felt totally appropriate.

We all knew this moment was coming. I was in town specifically to wait for this. I’m glad to have been witness and to have been preparing myself in advance.

I’ve been listening to podcasts about Buddhism recently. And having a hard time understanding how to eliminate suffering when the suffering is physical pain. Just Tuesday, driving to grandma’s I finally heard this addressed. They said that when a person no longer reacts to pain, the suffering stops and the pain simply becomes a feeling of discomfort. I thought about grandma as I heard this and found her sleeping in seeming-comfort when I arrived and was so comforted myself to think that perhaps she was no longer suffering. Other relatives (and even grandma herself) found comfort in Christianity throughout this process. I have never expected myself to find comfort in religion and was surprised to – kind of. (I don’t think of Buddhism as a religion and I really don’t think of it as my religion.)



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