english_wolf

If you’ve read my earlier entry you will know that i finally started training and i was loving it, unfortunately i then went and did something stupid and haven’t been able to do any form of training again until recently!
I was clever enough to have a climbing accident and i managed to snap my ankle in 2 places. Crutches seriously sucked, as did my complete loss of freedom, but my new found passion just couldn’t be killed off, in fact i think it became even more intense.
Well, even though my depression started to resurface due to me being unable to exercise I got myself through the worst and i have finally started all my sports again, except for kickboxing that is. Kickboxing still has to wait another month, no point starting it too early and re-injuring myself, that would just be dumb.
Anyway, Bring it on, because i can’t wait to get back to it!
Through martial arts I managed to find a resolve inside me that i never knew i had. Maybe finding that out because of the accident makes snapping my ankle worth it. Either way, let’s just hope i never forget that lesson because it’s certainly not one i want to have to go through again.

Woo hoo. After six and a half years of wanting to do it but being too afraid of faliure (and having no self confidence or any feelings of self worth whatsoever) i finally tried kickboxing out today, and it felt good. I know i have a long way to go and i’m not going to let this small step carry me away, but things are looking positive and tonight i go to bed with a smile on my face for the first time in a long time. One small achievement at a time, who knows what’s possible if i persevere.
Good luck to everyone in their goals and quests in life, and remember, if someone like me can overcome their problems then someone like you definitely can too.

I fell into making professional music videos by accident, but it’s a great experience (and one that annoys my friends with media degrees who are desperate to get experience and work in music videos and i just walked into it, but that’s another story). Anyway, the days shooting can be very long, usually about 7 or 8am until midnight, and you will always end up with an unexpected problem somewhere along the line but it’s a blast shooting them, and pretty surprising the quality you can squeeze out from a very small budget.

If you really want to make a music video the best advice i can give you is to just go out and do it. Get some friends who want to be on camera and get them to mime to any song you like and see what you can do. Editing is where the real skill comes in if you shot on a miniscule (or non-existant) budget, but even with something basic like windows movie maker you can edit together something pretty decent looking. Where you go from there i’m not sure. Maybe keep the final product as a showreel to get you onto a decent course at college/university, hopefully get a few people to look at it and then get some constructive criticism and learn from your mistakes, and then who knows where it will lead.
Music videos are the greatest place there is to experiment with techniques and obscure ideas, and are brilliant for expressing yourself.
Robert Rodriguez the famous director (look it up on imdb if you’re not sure) made his first proper film by shooting everything on a borrowed camera, editing, directing, shooting, everything himself, even writing the music for the film himself and he did it on a $7000 (mexican dollars, if they’re different to american, not sure) budget which he raised by undergoing experimental drug therapy, and he came in under budget. He got his mum to cook for the cast and crew, got his friends to be the actors, borrowed fake gund from the police, and with a lot of audacity and will power he made a pretty decent film, which looked way more expensive then it cost.
My point is, if you really want to do it then there really is nothing stopping you. Good luck