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SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AWESOME

Who knows how. I never thought I would. Even though I KNOW it will be back someday, I certainly beat it for now. There’s something parallel to the thing ‘un-depressed’ people call hope: I found that I know what it is to live and feel on so much deeper a level. At my most numb, depressed times (which lasted years) I felt so much closer to so many answers. Depression can be gratifying with its side effects of self-righteousness- becuase when you come out of it, you still feel enlightened. If nothing else, look forward to that.

this is never going to happen for me.