erinxenamor

i dont really understand why but it makes me so sad when i think of edward, almost like i know he will never exsits expect in fictionly stories. i wish i would already find him and be eternaly happy just holding his hand :/

All my life i have always lived, in more of a shell. Never letting myself/feelings really come through. Never asked out the guy I really wanted to. Never had any expectations for myself… accept to fail miserably, of course. I’m tired of living of fear. I used to just let people walk al over me, I have recently just got that all under control(lol wink wink). But if I really want to tell someone, “Hey, I really like you… will you go out with me?”. I’m gunna do it!!! No more being scared what everyone else thinks, I’m going to speak my mind, say what I want to say, and not give a care in the world what people think of me(I will nly do this to an extent i don’t want to seem bitchy ^^)!!!

I know everyone always says be yourself.But i hate myself its just a dumb fat ugly blob that always screws up all the time. I want my skin to look like an angels face not with huge pores and my skin to be perfect. im 15 and im a freashy and this ugly friend of mine has had more bfs than i have and they were hot i ad two and both were really ugly rednecks. i weigh 195 and i want to weigh 100-115 someone please help me, if i stay this way im gunna die!!! ill do ANYTHING just help