evelynhatez

i like my hair and my eyes, it pretty much stops there. i was diagnosed with body dysmorphia 4 years ago, plus with social anxiety and on/off bulimia, at times it has been hell. i’m shy, and everytime someone takes a picture of me i have to delete it because i know looking at it will make me feel sick. i took down all the mirrors in my house, and if i see my reflection i have to look sideways otherwise i look obese. i pick at my face constantly, my boyfriend hates it. he says i see things which aren’t there, somedays i can’t leave the house. it’s horrible, i feel gross.

spent it with my boyfriend, and my 2 best friends came round. have realised this is a silly goal, i don’t NEED to love my birthday, as long as i’m happy, that’s what matters. i spent it with the people i love and had a great time. it’s one day a year, what’s the big fuss!

i’ve cut down from liquid to pencil which i’m proud of but after like a week of pencil my right eye has become so sore it hurts to blink :|
errrrgh.