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I hate that I do this, but I feel better that it wasn’t my fault. I spoke with my doctor and for the type of acne I had, regular over the counter stuff wouldn’t have worked and I’d have scars anyway. SO now I have effective face stuff and my skin is already clearing and looks SO MUCH BETTER. I am so happy!

It is still hard to break the habit with my remaining scars, but after watching how effective this stuff is, I think I may finally be done with the behavior! I’ll see how it is going in a month :)

The more I work out, the more I weigh. My clothes fit differently, but the scale reads the same or higher. It’s frustrating. My doctors tell me that active overweight people are better off than non-active “skinny” people but the fact that they still label me as overweight is what bothers me—I’m really only 5 lbs above a normal BMI. An should I really care about a BMI if I can legpress 300 lbs and run a 5K in under 27 minutes? And am hour and a half at the gym 3 times a week MINIMUM is the norm to me not the exception, does that sound like “overweight” to you? Is my health really at risk here? This chick certainly doesn’t think so (http://blog.twowholecakes.com/2010/12/statistics-and-smokescreens-on-fat-as-a-threat-to-national-security/).

But they’re doctors and I’ll keep trying if they really think I should. In the summer when it is easier to run around outside I usually, and in this case absolutely will, shed 5+ lbs anyway, but for now, I don’t know. It is depressing in these winter months. It’s not the food, its not the exercise, and it is finally not all the endocrine issues, so what does that leave? I’m at a loss…except not.

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