everythingleft2lose

It sucks I never seem to be able to find the time. So shitty. I used to read about 4 books a month now I haven’t even finished one in 3 months. I’m really mad at myself for not taking the time to sit down and read. I’ll have to make it more of a priority.

so I started up guitar lessons again. I really need to start practicing more, sometimes I think I’m just handing my money away. Anyway I got lucky and found a really cool music student who is giving me lessons for 20 bux an hour it rox like really really rox. I’m so excited. Well i hope I can really play some music by the end of this year and can continue sessions with him for a long time. I love it! haha

I went through a phase in February that lasted through April in which I was consuming about 400 calories a day. I lost 13 lbs and it made me cry. I just was so unhealthy in the way I was living my life. I would wake up with headaches, was dizzy often, and would be in pain when I tried to each anything greasy. Though I ate a lot, it was fruits and vegetables which hardly gave me a balance, because I didn’t involve a well rounded meal into my routine. My chestbones started to show, and no one even notice. It made me more depressed not that I wanted the attention, but when I started to realize how unhealthy I was I started to notice the people I had surrounded myself with could have given a fuck less about me or my life. I realized it was time to leave the place I was at and find a happier healthier medium, and I did. I’ve never been so happy in my life, and now I’m working on the pounds in a fun healthy way. Working out, playing sports, and eating healthy balanced meals. I really hope if you are going through this and you are able to realize its not healthy please ask for help and stop, its more important that you wake up in the morning. Good luck!